If you find out let me know. I've been working in bursts of Hyper-focus. LOL
So, I got to a point where I realized I wasn't following my own advice/rules and was admittedly really bummed for a spell. I like to think that I'm bouncing back. I'm just sort of exhausted on all fronts, and then on top of that beating myself up for dumb reasons.
I completely forgot the book was an experiment and attempt to write a draft in real-time and post it. I got wrapped up in the making it work, instead of letting it be. It's a first damn draft.
It's only purpose is to be created and to tell the story to myself.
I need to go make a poster to put next to my computer screen to remind myself that.
I also started rewriting it again --but this time by my own standards and not trying to fit within Tapas word limits. And oh man, it's already so much better. LOL. Now, I feel a bit like an ass, because the 50 chapters I've updated are honestly, in that version, going to be streamlined in to A LOT less. --But, as I keep reminding myself. It's the first draft. I'm world building. I wouldn't be able to create the moments that I am, without writing everything out.
So --yeah, that's where I am. -- Trying to be kinder to myself.
A friendly reminder in case anyone else, like myself forgot:
It's draft one, damn it.
Just let it exist