Thank you Remy for sharing your thoughts and experiences on this topic. Your story is very much welcomed in this discussion and glad you shared it here 
Though I don't know your personality and our experiences are different, I get you on that front when your a creative individual making content and don't even consider yourself, people like you, or your culture as being a protagonist worthy.
It's wild bc you are the creator so it seems like it would be natural to include aspects of yourself that stem from cultural/racial/ethnic standpoint, but when we don't see ourselves in the media we consume, or are made to feel that we won't be as "palatable" to other consumers... it can have this effect on us. It's messed up and has served to make many of us feel down low.
It's something we have to consciously face in order to overcome and be aware of why we think the way we do when we are hit by these thoughts (or other peoples statements like how @Kura was expressed in how they approached being target growing up for trying to make a space that represented them.) in order to reinforce that there is nothing wrong with our race or culture/ethnicity and we have every right to be represented. Especially if we have to make the representation ourselves.