This might not resonate with you but I have a feeling that I need to tell you this, and I tend to follow those feelings.
I just turned 28, last year in May I was looking at graduating with my bachelors after working on it part time. I had a good job working full time for significantly above minimum wage, I had a three bedroom home that I was selling because I was planning on doing graduate school abroad, and I just got married to my partner of six years at that time.
The moment I Graduated everything fell apart. Health issues lost me my job, the house didnât sell and we couldnât afford the mortgage we moved back in with my parents as newly weds, it was horrible. I applied to jobs all of which I qualified for, but all I could get was a part time 29 hours a week job at minimum wage at a local library. My wife could only find a part time job too. I felt like a failure, but then I read âThe Secretâ and tones of other self help books.
Me and my wife still only work part time, but we are debt free, traveled to Germany and Amsterdam this year, live in our own apartment and generally take of ourselves without assistance.
All those people we see as âsuccessfulâ do you know what their secret is? They believe in their success. They believe no matter what that they would be successful, they were cocky stuck up and full of themselves even if they had no reason to be. These are traits we look down upon, but a little bit of self confidence and love doesnât hurt, and goes a long way. I know I sound like some crazy self help woo woo person, but I am talking from my own experience. Everyone has their ups and downs and though you may think something is impossible it is not! I know it is hard to change your mindset when things look bleak, but you will be ok.
The moment you decide to change something in your life you can! If you want to meet knew people, you can! Just ask for it, and wait to see what life brings you. Besides you say you have a hard time talking to people? You are talking to us now. As someone who struggles with anxiety I know itâs hard, but people usually are much nicer than we give them credit for. People are also much lonelier than we think, so I am sure you can find a friend.
Sorry for the long wall of text but I just had this feeling. Bless you and remember you are deserving of love and everything that you want out of life.