I have a complicated relationship with what I make.
There are a couple things that are simultaneously true for me, even though they're contradictory:
1: I'm well aware of most of the flaws in the comic I'm posting. The writing and artwork are both still very rough and I often struggle not to delete the whole thing and restart. I have a solid idea of what would need to be fixed to be more appealing, especially in the earliest pages. I could probably write a book with all of the problems my work has. Like all art, it's a reflection of the artist, and I unfortunately spend way too much time being introspective and critical of myself.
2: I love what I'm making and want it to be for fun. If I take it too seriously it might not be fun anymore. Once upon a time I might have wanted to do this professionally, but I consider this more of a fun hobby now.
3: Conflictingly, I also want to get better. I've taken to using my comic as a way to experiment and try out tips, tools, and improvements I've run across while trying to learn how to make a comic. I'm considering the version I'm putting out now a "rough draft" that will inevitably be redone later on down the line once I feel I've evened out and feel more confident in my artwork and writing. This unfortunately makes the pages vary wildly in quality and style. This, I KNOW is off-putting to most readers. (I owe the ones I have my life.)
4: Because of the status of my comic, I'm not sure if I have the heart to get critique on something I'm already well aware is flawed. It would feel like I'm presenting a bowl full of sugar, flour, and raw eggs to Gordan Ramsey and asking him to judge my cake. I love this stupid thing I'm making for fun and to learn. I love my characters and the world I'm making and the shape that the story is slowly taking. I have a clearer idea of how I want it to look when I finally start fresh with everything I've learned, but I'm not quite there yet.
So that long-winded explaination is to say: I love my work, but it's still half-baked. I'm working on it though, and have taken to viewing it more as a learning experience and exercise in writing and comic-making than a serious project, and because of that I would likely agree with any reasonable constructive criticism leveled at it, even though it might sting a bit.
