doki, maybe you need to take a walk or something. you seem to be getting pretty upset, which is understandable if youre being misunderstood, but its gonna lead to further spiralling.
if you have a sample question you want answered, its good to highlight it - you see some people put this question at the start or end in bold, and then go on their spiel. others just leave their forum post to the question on its own. if its not clear what your question is in a long post, people will respond generally to... the post. forumgoers like open-ended discussions, we like to discuss, thats why were on a forum.
but to answer your actual question 'how hard is writing to you?' (which i think i kind of have in previous replies):
i think writing is pretty hard, theres a lot to know and think about, and even very good writers create flawed stories. but its also really fun, even if parts of the process are gruelling.