You're not alone...this year started good, and then quickly went downhill. I'm so worn out & tired; it's like my anxiety & senses are in overdrive in regards to this pandemic- especially where my local and state officials are being stupid af and my job as well when they keep trying to invite people back into the office...the last time this happened was at the end of August before I went on my trip- and we ended up having an incident(someone tested positive). I am in total freak out mode every time they keep attempting to do this; I'd like to live...
Then my dad died from Covid at the end of August so I had to go put him to rest. Yeah he was old, and was also deteriorating from possible Alzheimer's, but I thought I'd at least had a couple more years...made the trip, did the deed, and returned home- but I've been like massively exhausted since; I was working on standalone art pieces most of the year before the trip, and it's like now my brain is pooped. I cant muster up the mental or physical energy to do any art, and the "upramp" in work from my day job is making me even more "burned out"; all I want to do when I get home is try to de-stress, watch TV or anime, and get some sleep...I'm always tired all the time.
I'm trying to pay off a final piece of debt, and it seems like a task to get started...trying to pay it off so that we can move to a bigger place(trying to rent a home for a bit) but the prices aren't coming down. The apartment community where we're currently at moved in some younger tenants who are loud, noisy, and leave their trash out in the walkway/stair area...I'm ready to move, but I'm not paying that type of money when the price used to adjust with the market(pre Covid)- so, we're stuck until at least January or February.
I wish I could take a couple months off and just reset/recharge my batteries; I'm tired of being uber stressed out all the time. I want to start back working on my comic as well, but all this stress is not helping my body heal right now.