Overwhelming Anxiety on Posting Day

[Greg_Dickson]

@joannekwan Yes! That's it! A feeling of wistfulness for interaction. I get so hyped up earlier in the week, that I come off of that sugar high, and just crasssshhhh...I feel more productive around my posting days, and when there's no interaction later in the week, I find it hard to get excited. You're totally right. I just gotta power through!

(I should of just combined those last 2 comments by editing the first one...oh well).

[shazzbaa]

YEAH I agree, wistfulness is a REALLY good way to put it!!

Especially in the days after my commenting stops, it's not exactly like I think "where are the comments???", but more that I wish I could produce a second page a week, so that I could keep interest up and discussion going.

I FEEL THIS SO MUCH TBH, like, my mind and heart are so full of my story and I just want to keep sharing in it with everyone constantly but TO DO THAT I GOTTA, DRAW MORE PAGES FIRST,,,,

[joannekwan]

Yes, that wistfulness is also why I'm here lurking the forums so much! xD
Which isn't bad, since I enjoy getting to know other creators~

[alaingrey]

I have the same problem! I have to check the page I'm posting like 5 times, sometimes doing last minute changes several times after not liking the preview and all that.. After I post I just try not to look at comments, which is ok because I dont feel fearful, but then I frequently just forget to ever respond. I find that doing something like posting and then immediately leaving my house helps. I usually post, then head out to the pub for a guinness and a sit by the fireplace. That way I'm not refreshing a page endlessly and panicking, and I get a reward for working hard.

[infectedbloodcomics]

May I be very blunt? Life doesn't revolve around comics. So, no, I don't get any anxiety from my posting days, just happiness for having accomplished something small. Seriously, people, a bit of a reality check, once in a while, doesn't really hurt 😀

[spadesart]

Tbh I'm kind of the opposite? maybe it's because I used to have "whenever" update schedules for my old projects but I always want to immediately post new pages when I finish them and get excited for update days. I'm also pretty confident in my art and love getting feedback so that might be a big contributing factor too :v

[Kura]

Usually I'm not too bothered by getting comments. I mean I love them all I just don't go crazy waiting for them or get too upset when I get a lack of them.

BUT

Some pages for whatever reason, either because I draw it really well and it came out great (in my opinion anyway lol) or because it has a line of dialogue in it I really like, I just can't wait to see what comments it will get. So I will not leave the site alone waiting on them to pop up.

Usually for pages like that, I try to pull myself away from the computer and keep my mind on other things. Since very little work gets done anyway when I keep going back to the internet browser to load up tapastic again.

As for the question. I do daily updates, but the experience is very much the same. Comments for the latest update will appear around the 24 hour mark, after that comments left on it are more rare. It's very noticeable if I don't update one day for whatever reason. I come onto tapastic to see no comments even though I had updated within the week.

[shaneoid77]

"just what is wrong with my comic?"

Eeeevery day

I will admit, I'm on a shed load of anti-anxiety meds and don't know how I'd fare otherwise, but enough about me.
Don't Be A Hero looks amazing, i haven't tucked in to it yet but the art is fantastic.

Things that may be going against your comic are not your comic itself.
♦ We noobs are pretty much pebbles in an ocean until we have a few years under our belts. Give it time.
♦ As you say, you get a small window in the fresh section, then it's down to searching. Are you on a website that's best promoting its talent?
♦ A previous forum post highlighted Action comics aren't best received on this site.
♦ No HTML on here means you can't link with Comic Rocket or Project Wonderful - not the best sources of traffic, but sources nontheless
♦ There's also @promotecomics @supportcomics @topwebcomics and @best_webcomics on Twitter

I've found it tough selling the action genre out to an audience craving Manga, BL and gag comics. While there seems many more walls to climb with action webcomics than what's popular right now, I think you should be proud of what you've achieved

[Greg_Dickson]

@infectedbloodcomics - It's not that life absolutely revolves around them for me. I'm always an anxious person anyway, and it just kind of leaks into my hobby. I like your note on getting happiness just by accomplishing something small though. Wise words.

@stnmaren - I wish I had that kind of mentality. I do get excited for updates at the same time, but I think my anxiety interferes with getting the full enjoyment out of the experience, due to thinking of the lull of the aftermath.

@kurapikasuki - I do try to pull myself away from the computer too, at least until the evening. But waiting during that time has never gotten much easier as I'm always eager to reply to people, so it's on the back of my mind throughout the day. Ah, so for daily updates the experience tends to die down a bit quicker? Interesting.

@shaneoid77 - Yeah those points make a lot of sense, and I'll definitely have to check those twitter handles. And action is a really hard genre to sell when BL, slice of life, romance and comedy are the main points of interest to Tapastic's audience. Thanks, I hope you'll enjoy the read.

[allenthomas]

I suffer from the exact same feeling. Normally after I post my comic, I'll take a break from all things pertaining to my comic. I also upload in the action genre and while I'm not sure if it's like this for anyone else but it is definitely difficult to attract new fans. It's funny to hear you say that you upload your comic and then it'll lose exposure once new comics get posted. I've always thought the same thing. The key is to not get discouraged though. Trust me, I have only been on here for two years and my comic has still gone through plenty of lulls, lost subscribers, low viewership, and the like. These things happen and it's hard. You just have to find ways to chill and keep creating your art and trying to push it out to as many people as you can. Even when it feels like no one is interested in your comic but you.

[WakaXO]

I have horrible anxiety issues so I'm usually overwhelmed on posting day, but that's not saying much as I'm usually overwhelmed the rest of the time anyways. ;v; I find putting the pages on scheduled updates really helps cut the tension I feel. I don't know why, I guess it's just one less thing to worry about.
But for the most part I'm in the same boat as you, feeling pressured to do more, do better and get there faster while having basically no time. All I can say is don't let your feelings of anxiety corrupt your view, and kill the joy you feel for your comic. I think you're being overly critical of yourself and your work. You're usually your own biggest critic, and while that's not a bad thing as looking at your work in a critical way can help improve it, its also easy to go too far in the opposite direction and cripple your work.

It takes a long time to garner an audience and while there are some things you can do to speed up the process, you can basically expect 3-5 years as the amount of time your going to have to put into a comic before it starts really taken off. So the best thing you can do is be patience and enjoy the journey, don't worry about the destination too much.

I hope any of this helps, rest assured a lot of people are feeling the slow traffic of this time of year and it doesn't reflect the quality of your comic. In my opinion your comic has been getting better and better each update.

[indagold]

I got more important things to be anxious over and lose sleep over than comics lol I've been making comics for 10 years and whatever problems I encountered when I was first doing it I've long forgotten since I was 12 since i'm used to it by now. You are probably never going to get the feedback you want, you have to accept that. Focus on your life first, irrelevant things only make you worry about nothing.

[Down_the_Rabbithole]

I know this sort of anxiety very, very well. The best thing to do when this beast rears its ugly head is to wrestle it into submission. It sounds easier said than done, but hear me out.

I've been doing this to my other anxieties and it's been working for me. I address all my anxious thoughts and subconsciously tell them, "No! You can't stop me from doing this! I want to do this!" The real reason to write a webcomic should not be to make money or get popular, that's how you crash and burn. You're making this because you want to make it. Let your passion guide you and you will feel satisfied in just getting something done.

Keep in mind that you will fall and succumb to the anxiety sometimes, but the most important part is to stand back up and fight back. And it does seem like you already have people who like what you do. Be happy about that. Think of them cheering you on as you go. Though growth is nice, getting your story told is your top priority. Feel proud that you've committed yourself as far as you have without giving up. Feel even prouder as you make more pages in your story.

[Shanny8]

I've been doing fairly well this month of November. From the day I post my comic, to the next following week, I'm usually screaming my head off on various social platforms to generate reads for my comic. I'm pretty okay when it comes to posting a new page; for me the 1st day is always the best day- the best part is that I ride the wave of New Comic Book Day(since I post on Tuesdays) on Wednesdays; the momentum of "Indie Comic Thursdays' and by Friday I'm planting seeds in everyone's heads to read my comic while they're resting on the weekend. Monday is the only day where it seems like I dont do or say much coz I'm usually transitioning myself to get ready for the new page on Tuesday.

It's gonna suck when I finally have a lull between this chapter and the next.

And @Greg_Dickson- you have FAR more readers & subs than I have! You're moving at a good pace; you just need to start figuring how to make better usage of your time- which I know is hard, coz you have a fam & all. I think you're doing okay so far...if you feel you're overwhelmed maybe you might want to A) take a break and get caught up/get ahead art wise or B) make shorter chapters/episodes. Try looking at promoting on various other social platforms besides Twitter. If I took pics like nobody's business and had an Instagram account, I'd be promoting there..!

I praise your comic, because you put a lot of effort into it, and you've made leaps of improvement over months. It's fun to read, and I enjoy the characters.

[Greg_Dickson]

@allenthomas Yeah, it's so easy to be bumped off that Fresh page, and it's always been difficult to make it onto Popular or Trending. The best we can hope for is for someone to browse the action pages and stumble upon us. I'm definitely trying my best not to be discouraged, but I just had to vocalize this just to see if I'm not alone. Let's try our best out there.

@WakaXO - Thanks, friend. It makes me feel better knowing someone close to me is going through the same thing. I mean, I'm not glad you're anxious, but it's comforting to know I'm not alone. Haha, yeah I do have a tendency to be overly critical. I've always been too hard on myself, and people tell me I need to stop. I'll try my best to keep a cooler head. Thanks for all the kind praise. It's always made me happy to know that you're enjoying my comic so much, and I've definitely been enjoying Neon Rabbit just as much. I feel the same way about yours.

@indagold - Actually, I do get a lot of feedback I want. I guess I just get anxious waiting for it to come. lol.

@Down_the_Rabbithole - You're right, getting this story told is the most important thing to focus on. My mind has always had a tendency to tell me that I shouldn't be doing things or that I'm not good enough, even though I know it's wrong. I've never had practice with dealing with it like the ways you're stating so maybe I should practice.

@Shanny8 - I think I have far more anxiety than you have. lol. And yeah, you're definitely the tweet king when it comes to vocalizing your comic. It is SO hard to figure out how to use my time with this comic, because I spend so much time working/sleeping/parenting and even several nights a week staying up later hanging out with my wife. I've been trying to come up with a scheme to make shorter episodes. I want to shorten down CH 2 for sure. Thanks so much for the encouragement Shanny. You're a great friend, and I look just as much to Ray Thunder each week.

[Down_the_Rabbithole]

It's a good thing to practice. I got the idea as I was getting treated for my anxiety via therapy. Basically, my therapist explained that the anxiety was caused by distorted thinking. I was thinking a lot of the same stuff you were down to the point of "I'm the worst person" and "Everyone should hate me". I knew somewhere that those thoughts weren't true, but it still sent me into a fearful downward spiral.

Once I had a name for these types thoughts, I realized I had strength over them. They were false, negative things gnawing at my emotions. Using rational thinking and putting myself back on the right path has helped me tame these thoughts. And at least this experience helped me come up with the plot in my own comic. In essence, it's about overcoming fears and anxieties and not letting them control you. I've also committed myself to practice what I preach and help others with their anxieties as well. Be strong and good luck to you!

[blackopsracing321]

I'm going to start off by saying (if you don't already know )I FREAKING LOVE YOUR WORK! So at the very least you have a diehard fan in me.

As for the anxiety, I get it pretty bad as well. And not just during the "lull" (which is practically the day after my update). I get it when just before I read comments, after I finish a page, when I get a new sub and I'm a complete mess the day I introduce a new character (was freaking out hard when I introduced Cairo, afraid no one would like him). What I ask myself when I feel like that is "what are going to do? Quit? Then what? Are you going to give up your hobby?" The answer is always "no". I love drawing and I've been wanting to make a comic long before I even knew webcomics were a thing. Remembering that really helps me get pass those feelings.

[dojo]

I post every day, but I'm going to be honest and say the main reason I do that is because of that anxiety. One of my comics only updated once a week, but it was making me really nervous, so I cut the number of pages for one of them down to three a week, so I could up the other to two a week. Those slumps terrify me, so I spit out pages like crazy so I can cover them up as best I can, leaving my weekends free because I have enough going up that I'll still get some hits here and there. I mean, there are other reasons as well as to why I keep my update schedule really hardcore and honestly a little unrealistic, but that is the main one. I can't focus and definitely will talk myself out of working if I don't keep things so fast I can't complain about it.

(that being said, I know you didn't make this post as a cry for attention, but I just wanted to say I have been meaning to take a look at your comic. I see you around a lot and have been wanting to give it a look. I'm hoping I'll have some spare time later this week to fit some of these comics that are sitting on my backburner in)

[scythe]

I only post once a fortnight, so my dry spells seem to take forever and often when you do get to that post day it's not what you expected. I've heard some people say it takes years to get any real following or recognition. I'd jus like to point out that it's not necessarily years it takes, but also pages. Yes, I've already been doing this for a year and more, but my story has barely begun, so it's silly of me to think I'd have some huge following when there's so little of a story to follow.

Anxiety probably just means you care, and that's better than ambivalence in my book.

[Greg_Dickson]

@Down_the_Rabbithole - That's the thing, I've never seen a doctor/therapist regarding my anxiety. I get so anxious about how much it will cost on top of everything that I have to afford, that I never make the effort to go. That's a really good mindset though, as multiple times a day I will think like this, even though I know I shouldn't. I start to get embarrassed at myself just for feeling this way, knowing how ridiculous it is. That's definitely a good theme for your comic. I remember checking a bit of it out earlier, and I'll definitely have to check some more out soon.

@blackopsracing321 - Haha, of course I know Mike. Otherwise I wouldn't have gotten such an awesome fan art. I guess just getting fan arts should tell my mind to shut up on this. Ah, I've had that kind of anxiety before my Gemini and Trixie intros too (not so much with the devil. I knew he was too cool to hate). Funny you would think that with Moe-er...Cairo, since he's such a fan favourite. That's a good point. Giving up would just yield nothing. Like, what would I do? Just stare at a wall? Or hole myself up and do nothing but play games the rest of my days? I'm too proud of what I've accomplished to revert back like that.

@dojo - Did you mean every day a week to three a week? Or do you mean that you bumped up production to three days a week? I really, really wish I had that kind of productivity, as it would constantly keep traffic coming, but I barely have enough time to finish a page a week. I'd totally love to have a dedicated day or two off, but I pretty much have to use every morsel of time I've got to keep on schedule. I'm glad you didn't peg it as a cry for attention, as this has been something that's genuinely been bothering me for a long time. I'm surprised at the amount of positive reassurance I've been getting, since I was even anxious about the thought of looking like a fool by posting about this. I'd love to see what you think of my work, given the level of awesomeness yours conveyed to me when I checked it out. I should definitely stop by sometime and see what you've released since my last visit. I like the mellow, minimalistic nature of your comic. It's got this simplistic aspect to it that makes it absolutely charming.

@scythe - Yes, I definitely wish I could pump out more pages to get more of my story moving along. I do agree with pages being more of a factor than time. I've got friends who started around the same time as me, but update more frequently, and their traffic is way higher than mine. That's a good thought about what my anxiety could mean, but it still isn't very fun to deal with. lol.