I'm looking forward to Alicia's photoshoot with "Still Life" Magazine, coming out next week. It's going to be a landmark chapter in the novel, but it starts with the biggest panic-attack meltdown ever.
I wake up feeling like Iām nailed to the floor.
I was dreaming but I canāt remember what I was dreaming about. There is no noise - no motion - no alarm going off but the sirens in my head, but I feel like Iām pinned and I canāt move an inch as my heart races and crashes.
Iāve gotta go -
Iāve gotta go - Iāve gotta go- but I donāt know where or how-
I have something Iām supposed to be doing-
I know I didnāt sleep through my alarm-
But I canāt - I canāt -
And I donāt know why-Iām-sh-a-k-ing-
I manage to raise my hands but just to cover my face.
My heart is pounding so furiously the beats seem to overlap with each other.
I canāt move -
Also the chapter "Cradle."
I know some people have been waiting for more sweet and less tumultuous moments between the leads lol. (cough cough @HostileFren)