I just really hate my life right now.
I want to find joy in doing things, but now, all I feel is that I'm just some useless idiot due to where I work and the people I live near constantly making things worse.
I'm overstressed, and I cannot take a hiatus, I need to get better at drawing. But I want to do EVERYTHING. I cannot balance my life well, and if I try to, it just gets worse and worse each day.
I cannot move out easily, I need to save money and I need to actually get a good job for once, but because of other people, it's impossible, since everyone's way too picky in who they hire, even though you could be the best worker, they just will deny you just because you wore a black polo when they like red polos better to the job interview or some stupid thing.
And if I cannot improve, what good am I?!