Let ye flood gates open, because I can't ever actually talk about this with anyone I know in person.
I'm sick of people only talking to me because of my art. This has been a thing since I was a kid, and there's a particular memory forever seared into my brain. In elementary school we would have a day where everyone would get slips of paper from aaalll the other students about what was good about them. Most people would get a mix of comments like 'you're nice/pretty/friendly/fun/etc. etc. etc.' Every single one of my slips was that I was good at art. As a kid it was both cool, and upsetting. As an adult, it seems stupid, but it's still frustrating. (I have to remember that none of those slips came from a friend though; I was an outcast at school so I'm like half grateful that people were nice enough to at least compliment my art??? haha)
There are a handful of people that genuinely care for me as a person and all of the things I want to do, and I cherish those people with all of my heart.
Then there are people, so many people, that I am friends with where it seems so superficial. What urks me the most is I can't really tell who is genuine sometimes, and who isn't. I have had one person straight up say she wants to know someone who works at a big animation studio, and I'm her shot- I welcomed her honesty and bluntness with open arms. lmao
Oh boy, and I wanted to rant about being in art school and all the insane self-marketing wars that go on... but it seems like this post is long enough. Perhaps another time.
Also I have to complete my readings for my physics class and I am procrastinating so hard right now