I'm late again, what I see is a room already empty and the posts are written in paper, scattered around.
Well, I'm still writing anyway. I'm Tsukiko and that's not my real name. I can confidently say that I think I'm very gifted in making the wrong choices.
I'm so angry at myself that I was such a naive feller, thinking I could live full time as a free manga artist and all I needed was the willpower to do it. So I burned all the bridges, I left my work and waved my middle finger on everyone while laughing hard (in my imagination)
A lot of people always say that it will take a lot of years to build a solid number of readers, I thought I was up to it (and I'm still now), I loved the idea, I'm angry to myself that I didn't think what I will do if it was already 8 years and nothing was changing. It NEVER crossed my mind that maybe one day I'll realize I was just being selfish, or stubborn, or refusing to grow up or maybe running away from reality. Making my dreams as an escape instead. I feel like I'm doing everything that people tell not to do. Almost all the time I feel like I'm digging my own grave.
The worst part of it all, Is as of right now I still refuse to acknowledge the facts. I still BELIEVE in my goal with nothing to back it up, just this blind and naive belief that everything will one day connect.
please don't kick me fellas, this will be the last time I'll bitch xD