I thought for the longest time that social media would help me grow as a content creator, but its only done the opposite and has honestly made me depressed seeing my stuff go unnoticed every time I post my art while everyone around me is getting showered in tons of likes and praise and in some cases even being able to make money off of their art while I've yet to make a cent from mine because the truth is that nobody cares about me as a creator and nobody ever will care even if I opened a Patreon account tomorrow and told my followers to go check it out.
I've tried being consistent. I've tried everything applying everything I researched in how to drive up engagement on both Twitter and Instagram, but no matter what, nobody acknowledged my existence and the amount of engagement I got if any remained the same. Little to none!. In fact, nobody cared enough to ever engage with my art on Twitter for example. No likes. No retweets. No nothing! And I had put a ton of work into one particular panel of the latest LoaA page I had made before I put the comic on hiatus again to build up a buffer for the rest of the current chapter. It is what you could say was a "fan art" panel and I thought it was not only good to share, but good enough that it might get some significant attention since it featured three different very popular fandoms all in one panel.
Of course...NOT! How could I be so stupid? I only got three likes and one retweet iirc when I posted it. Yeah. Of course, I then later saw that day on my Twitter feed some bland Tumblr esque style drawn fan art someone I follow retweeted featuring the same characters from the Kingdom Hearts franchise (featured on the right above) that I referenced for Life of an Aspie and for whatever reason, the internet decided to reward that artist for their mediocrity with thousands of likes and retweets even though I worked harder than he did.
And as for Instagram? Same thing. No matter how much effort I put into building up my follower count, No matter how many art related accounts I followed, and no matter how consistent I tried to be with my posts, the amount of likes per post remained below 20. Maybe occasionally dipped into the 30-ish range. Meanwhile, my peers kept seeing genuine organic growth and got more likes per post than I ever got in a month's worth of posts combined. God forbid I be passionate about what I do! No matter what I try and no matter how much I apply myself, the result is still the same! The Internet keeps ignoring my efforts and I'm sick of being sick about not getting the attention and feedback I so badly want!
Honestly, its a losing game for me at this point. People in my age bracket are having more success with social media and are better artists than I'll ever be and what's worse is that nobody cares enough to help me! I've tried in the past to seek out a mentor to help me level up significantly. I either get ignored or my offer is rejected! I've tried to help myself and I know I'm improving and have been told as much recently by my subscribers, but everyone around me is improving that much faster by comparison! Ugh..I want so bad to be able to skip past all the boring stuff that goes into being an artist and jump straight into the point where my art is unarguably great and I get paid the big bucks for both my art and for LoaA, but I don't think that's going to happen. I try to make it fun for myself, yet I'm still improving at a snail's pace!
What finally cemented my decision to get rid of my Twitter and Instagram accounts last night was seeing yesterday's Daily Snack feature some atypical shoujo comics or so the description went.
Hello! I have a non standard shoujo manga too Tapastic! Would have been nice if you acknowledged my existence for once, but like with social media, I know deep down that they too don't care about what I have to offer and yeah some of that's on me , but still. How much more do I have to grind before fate smiles upon me and blesses me with the results and attention that part of me still strongly desires? How much more do I have to grind before people will stop being picky about my art and stop ignoring me because of it? How much more do I have to grind before people will be lining up to pay me for my art?
All I know right now is that social media is a big fat waste of time and it hasn't helped me in any significant way. At this point, I'm just going to be a hermit and only "exist" through my comic. Perhaps one day, my isolation will pay off and my art won't be crap anymore and thus, people will actually care about it!