Am I the only one...?

[carloswebcomic]

Yeah, it came from Apple.
I understand they had to, but Tapas handled it so poorly that it showed what kind of regard they have for users of their platform... Or at least what kind of regard they have for me (ie- none)

[tangaroa]

Yeah, it came from Apple.

Well, your only recourse there is to bitch at Apple and get ignored by their even worse PR. The giant corps are notorious for not telling you what you did wrong, not allowing you to fix it, and having people in their review staff who will ban you if they lost a debate to you on some other forum. If you are lucky enough to find someone there who will tell you what was flagged and how to fix it, that would be the only way to get the block removed.

[DiegoPalacios]

It's a sickening filling at the bottom of my stomach like when you bite into an apple full of worms or when you realise that tapas quietly removed your comic from the app without telling anyone.

If i am not wrong, this depends of the content of your comic. If it is too gory or explicitly sexual (and perhaps other content guideline variables) it may not be available in the app.

If that is not the case, send a mail to the tapas staff to fix this situation.

Please take care and wish you the best.

[carloswebcomic]

If i am not wrong, this depends of the content of your comic. If it is too gory or explicitly sexual (and perhaps other content guideline variables) it may not be available in the app.

If that is not the case, send a mail to the tapas staff to fix this situation.

They made it clear that they'll do nothing about it.
Doesn't matter, I've given up on this place anyway.

[DarJodo]

Jodo hopes you have not given up on the community.

This one is in a similar situation with his burnout. Jodo considers himself a pretty good writer, but as much as he writes, it has not gotten him anywhere. Hence the mental block. He needs to make it so he can use his skills to sustain himself.

[potatogirl]

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[joannekwan]

bruh you're right here :'<

[carloswebcomic]

bruh you're right here :'<

Only if you search for it now, since the update.
Under the popular comedy comics, it's completely missing from the listing.
So for all intent and purposes, unless you're searching for my comic, I don't exist.
So obviously, they still don't want me there.
And I'm pretty sure that my comic showing in the search since the update is some form of fuck up that they'll correct eventually.

Actually, I remember you brought up that my comic was showing in the app when it wasn't supposed to. Did you get a response back in regards to that?

[joannekwan]

Hmm, are the lists still bugging out and not showing everything when searching all series under a specific genre? I'll tag @ratique to possibly look into this.

I just don't want this to make you feel like your series is further slipping away and add on to your depression. I know how it feels when things slowly slide or stagnate compared to others and it just piles on and on … it's not fun.

And no response to it, so I'm guessing it was a fix?
I'm still able to find my own and other mature series on the app. And now with the guidelines for staff picks made apparent, I'm guessing mature series are just barred from being featured, but show up fine in search? ¯l_(• - •)_/¯

[SuperRazz]

I used to have severe depression and anxiety so I could understand that feeling. It's ok if you disagree and I'm only speaking for myself when I say this but back then...I don't think really looked at the world objectively, that includes my skills and work ethic. And because I was so ill back then, I don't really think any amount of improvement or validation could have 'fixed' the way I perceived my work.

right now someone can call my work 'trash' and I'd be ok with it.

[carloswebcomic]

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I just don't want this to make you feel like your series is further slipping away and add on to your depression. I know how it feels when things slowly slide or stagnate compared to others and it just piles on and on … it's not fun.

Please don't concern yourself with my illness.
I've given up on Tapas anyway, so whatever happens, happens.

Also I just saw you have a bunch of subs in your comic...

Well subs are not indicative of the quality of my artwork.
Usually with comics, as long as you can make your point across with distracting the reader is enough. You don't need good art.

My art, if not attached to a comic, it's an abysmal failure.

This one is in a similar situation with his burnout. Jodo considers himself a pretty good writer, but as much as he writes, it has not gotten him anywhere. Hence the mental block. He needs to make it so he can use his skills to sustain himself.

Stay strong, Jodo.
I wish you better luck than me.

[potatogirl]

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[carloswebcomic]

I know depression, I have a friend who is always dramatic and has depressive attacks all the time and he is the most talented person I've ever met... but he still feels miserable no matter how many people love him and what he does. So I do understand that people telling you "nah you're wrong your art is good" won't make you feel better because it's YOU that don't like your own art... and we can't do anything about that, only you can.

Well, this is a bit different. People telling you that your art is good when it simply gets ignored every time is like telling a blind person that they can see just fine.
I've been fortunate enough to receive fan art and people commented on how much better other people were at doing my own characters as opposed to me.
I have a basis for what I'm saying.
I do practice. I've been drawing every day for over 17 years, yet my work is still being ignored.
I'm tired and in poor health, I don't think I'll ever get good before I kick the bucket, and that's kind of scary.

[potatogirl]

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[carloswebcomic]

But... it's not ignored, you have a bunch of subs and almost 400 patrons...that's a lot of support from people....

I know, it may seem like a lot, but I can assure you it's not the art! Ha ha!

[edicoesgorilase]

Hello there Carlos,

I have been reading the conversation and I think I have been in a similar place once. Not that I am comparing something. That is not truly what I am trying to do.

I can only speak for my experience...
In my case, I think I felt the same as you do, and, sometimes I still do. There are days when I think my art will always be ignored.
But, I came to terms with there is nothing that I can do about it. The feeling will not go away even if I get all the subs and likes on tappas and webtoon combined.
The feeling is more... like a black hole. It will never never go away, so what can I do with it?

Well, in my case, I learned to live with it. I stopped doing art for others, or trying to charm and wow them, and now I do it for me, and I try to improve for me. I know I will always make better in the next page, comic or illustration... I guess everything else comes natural...
I live comfortable knowing that I will try my best and there is nothing else that I can force to happen.

And something else, don't be shy to try to seek help. Professional help. It is not bad seeking help. seeking someone to talk to. I really think that seeking that help will make everything easier to cope with.

I really wish you the best.

Regards,
Daniel

SWEET WIND | Tapas

[SilentHamster102]

I'm not feeling exactly like you, it's not physical for me.
But anyway I can't see my artwork, it's awful. Current is subpar, but old stuff is just real bad (i'm not even talking about story). And right now I should post it, and redrawing everything is not an option. It's because I'm moving out from public eye after I'll finish current project (even thinking about it can made me feel better).

[snowy]

I'd seek some pro help for my depression, because, dude....you have a level of support and a fanbase most of us can only dream of.
To hear someone in that position give in to despair and put themselves down like that...I dunno, it kinda makes the rest of us, standing at the foot of the mountain you're on top of, wonder why we should even bother.

You think your illustrations suck ? They don't, but so what if they did. Art is a wide field. Nobody is perfect at every single aspect of it. That just doesn't happen.
And have you really, truly taken the time needed to get better at it ? If your depression is this bad, it probably stopped you from trying. Don't draw conclusions about your own possibilities and talent based on how down you feel right now.

[carloswebcomic]

Don't draw conclusions about your own possibilities and talent based on how down you feel right now.

You see, my problem is that I don't have a point of reference. It's not that I feel down now. My condition is chronic so there's no "normal" for me. It's constant depression non-stop 24/7, which is why I wanted to know if what I felt was normal or if it's my depression talking, because I truly can't tell the difference.

[DarJodo]

It is probably important to note that the context has changed, and very recently too. From the amount of time and effort a lot of us have put into our art, we expect to have made it already, because that is how it works in even the most modest of success stories. But Jodo suspects that those stories are getting pretty old by now.

In the new reality, good art is no longer good enough. There is also marketing to think about.