I feel depressed a lot too ...
But I am not clinically diagnosed with depression.
But I am clinically diagnosed with panic attacks.
"I have depression ranging in seriousness from a general "life sucks" feelings, to full on suicidal thoughts and tendencies"
I know how that feels tho I am not to the suicidal thoughts yet. I do however have times that I thought it's ok that I just die soon.
I self-harm tho or maybe its just bad emotion management? When I don't do well in something (esp things I care about) or when bad memories 'replayed', I'll start swearing at myself verbally (loud enough) and sometimes I will hurt myself - like punching the wall and hitting myself. Never once did I tried to cut myself tho.
And due to that, I had a finger that will kinda hurts out of nowhere ... it's the last 'tiny' finger so it doesn't really affects that much ... but it becomes a problem when I need to hold the mouse for a long time.
But oh well, we still get things done ... no matter how slow or fast 