Hi, Depressed creator! I'm sort of depressed person, too. More exactly, I'm (obviously) in partial remission now. I'm fighting with depression as far as I can.
I have this feeling through my life, too. But it is ok. You still can make friends even if you don't feel as a part of any particular community.
I'm sorry for the personal question, but I'm really curious, how does it combine with depression?
When I'm in my darkest state, literally everything cause me pain, so I hate everything and everyone, including even friends. So I thought that too strong moral pain and cognitive bias, caused by deep depression, make it impossible to feel anything good or to be a nice person.
Do you have any tricks how not to harm others when you are in pain? You may not answer if you don't want. I just thought it would be useful for me to learn.
I'm not sure if stuff are reading this thread. Maybe you'd better send them a letter about it via email.