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Mar 2019

When I was a bit younger, I felt extremely dissatisfied with everything I do, to the point I hated and scrapped almost everything I created.
Now I don't. I've become more calm in general and more deeply realised that there is nothing ideal in the world (besides math :stuck_out_tongue: (correction: now I've recalled some topics from philosophy of math and foundation of math and started to doubt is math really ideal as well...)), so I became less critical to myself, too. Also I've found people who liked things I draw and write, and it helped to overcome it, too. I still prone to excess perfectionism and feel dissatisfied with what I do from time to time, but don't really hate things I do anymore.

I hate specific things. Mainly it's about my art. For example I hate specific pages because they turned out very badly, or that I just spent way too little effort in them. If I hated the story I wouldn't draw it.

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Like this page is ugly af. Hate it with a passion.

This is one of my favourites, basically just because I like the script and tone of it even if it has about the same amount of effort as the one before.

The only thing I hate is not having enough time to make more of my own work! The pages I could be drawing instead of sleeping or working :pensive:

I would be so proud of how my work turn out and then a few days later (sometimes even hours) and I look again at it, I notice a ton of mistakes I made and beat myself up for not catching it earlier :broken_heart:

Hating my work? No.
Hating my lack of skills and my lack of time to draw? Hell yeah!

Ooh, interesting topic. I think it's super common for artists to dislike their work. I hate my work some weeks, but then a new week comes and I have a chance to do better with the next update. We have up's and downs, it's fine. Other people will like your work, and in the meantime you re achieving something by getting it out there and seen, so I try not to hate. It's just, sometimes, we wish we could do better right? XD

I hate myself so I'm bound to hate thing associated with it, I try to hate my creations and works less by time so it will not halt my productivity.

I think it's conditioned by lack of encouragement and acknowledgement I got growing up. It is strengthened by some notion that you have to be humble or else you're the worst arrogant jerk and you're only good at thing when you're the best on it.

It's hard to dismantle the thought that having confidence in your work means you are stuck up bastard that think too highly of yourself that you think your own work is good when nothing in this world is perfect. Is it also hard to believe that you don't need to be the best on something to genuinely be that thing.

The second, when you already admit your work sucks people would be more understanding and less likely to call you out on it. Having told mistake I have made is like repeatedly being shamed on it and I hate that.

Not really, I'm prod of even the bad ones. but I always feel like I could do better. I never tried to hide my art from people's eyes. unless for a good reason like spoilers or sth.

No, I love my comics!

My illustrations on the other hand... I'm still working on becoming a better illustrator so I end up hating them sometimes. I have one that I'm working on where I got so frustrated that I spent so much time on and it wasn't coming out right and ended up crying over it. I went back to it though and got it looking a bit better.

I envy people who can make a beautiful color illustration in half an hour or an hour. How?! ._.

Sorry about that. For some weird reason some people mistake confidence with arrogance.

Being humble is not about thinking bad about yourself. Is about seing yourself in an objective way, understanding that nobody is perfect, but at the same time, nobody is absolute trash. We are humans.

Is good to feel happy about your own work or about something you did and is good to celebrate improvements.

We all make mistakes, but the good thing is you can learn from them. It's important to understand the difference of constructive and destructive criticism and the different between facts and opinions.

I’m very proud of my own work, but sometimes if I’m like, re-reading my novel or something, I skip chapters so I don’t have to remember what I allowed everyone to read (aka sex scenes) :joy:

I don't hate my work in any way.
However, when I look at it, I see a lot of flaws and things to improve. But it's not a negative feeling. I actually love seeing places where I can improve. I don't think I would see the point of drawing/writing/anything creative if there was not a learning process involved, a never-ending place for improvement.

I could say that I like the fact that my work is not great, because I like the future opportunities it gives me. So I can't hate it.

well, I used to hate my own comic regularly in the past but now if I start to feel good about it, I usually see something that ends up getting me discouraged usually due to jealousy. (not usually in skill, but well... attention. yeah, I'm that kinda person sadly)

That's gotta be a rough feeling

I kinda have this same thing but with myself. I look at my programming career and wish that level of support with my art. I sometimes look at my older art and miss the encouragement I used to get back then.

Sometimes a bit. I think it's a new thing for me. Fueled by stupidity. :smiley:
When I was a kid I didn't hate my works at all. I knew it is not as good as adults' works, but I thought it is natural and I was very happy about those things I did right and didn't care about what I did wrong. So I think I could focus on positive things better like I do now... :confused:
I think when we are getting older we start to develop really high standards against ourselves like "we should be better in this age, because we know there are people who are already greater in our field", but if we see it logically it is really stupid. If somebody is in your age doesn't mean you two have the same amount of training and learning. But we don't see training hours so clearly as we see another person's age, so we start to think we just not have the same capacity...
I really miss those moments from my childhood when I could feel very proud of myself without any feedback.
But I still don't know the cure for this mentality. Maybe if I will have the financial background, I will take a break from the internet and social media and start to make a secret sketchbook I will not show to anyone.

nah

i kinda... struggle with my work though. i find that my standards are always just out of what i can do; its like i can identify the flaws, but not the solutions. i recognise this is a normal thing, but right now im in a place where im developing my understanding and practice so fast that my production cant really keep up.

i also recognise a lot of TWAW isnt the best work i can create; i dont have the time or resources to make it my Best Work, but also im building it on a foundation of work ive mostly grown out of. i recognise the good things in each chapter and i enjoy making them ((mostly)), but i tend to feel a bit disappointed at the end of each chapter - its like as soon as its finished i can see all the things i should have done differently. i think thats normal too, but it gets me down sometimes.

but i dont hate my work. i have a lot of affection for all of TWAW for what it means to me and where it got me, and i enjoy making it, which is the priority to me.

Hate is too strong of a word. At worst, I do feel some dissatisfaction with a lot of my comic pages because I knowingly rush them out (or at least some parts) so they rarely feel like my best effort. It just goes into the quantity vs. quality ratio, and at this point I'm more interested in quantity.

But I'm pretty happy with my work overall. It keeps getting better regardless, so I'm satisfied with that~

No. Not at all. Not in a long time.

Of course, I feel a bit embarrassed about my older work as it looks pretty crusty but it can't be helped.