Oh wow, what a fear to have.
I think you have grown so much, and I am so sorry that you a 14-year-old has to have this fear and anxiety.
Teens should make mistakes and grow, without that fear always looming over their head.
Have you talked with adults in your life about this fear? It can be any kind of adults, so you are not alone in it.
I would delete the old non sensitive stuff, and then write a good apolygy and say you have learned.
Then I would take a break from instagram, and social media. Try and focus on something away from it, like a good game, go for walks, draw traditionally etc.
Good luck, and I super hope that it gets better.
Heidi from Snackbag Studios