Yeah, I'm definitely the type to expect immediate progress and hold myself to ridiculously high standards immediately. OOPS.
It wasn't just that I was embarassed though. Actually in that respect, I was mostly okay. But when I was younger, before I really got going in showing my art online, I went through a really bad episode of cyber bullying and I completely shut myself off. I think cuz of that, and because rumors of art theft, it took me another decade to gather my courage back and try putting myself out there again. I try not to think about where I'd be now if that hadn't happened. I'm at least glad I'm here now, anyway.