I'll just cut straight to the point. I don't enjoy drawing comics, and I don't think I ever have. And when I say that, I don't mean my series specifically, I mean the medium of comics. And I cant name a single point in the past 7 years where I genuinely enjoyed drawing something comic related, with exceptions of course. But whenever I would find myself hating what I was doing, I would tell myself to suck it up, because this was the only effective medium I could use to tell my story. Which, up until a year ago, it was but things have changed since then. In late 2024, I started attending animation school where I learned animation, of course, and where I brought myself closer to turning Crescent Blue into a show. In that time, I've found animation and storyboarding to be more creatively fulfilling than drawing comics, even though both mediums are equally labor intensive. And that's not to say comics as a medium are inferior, that's not what I'm saying, but at least for me, I was getting something more out of animation and animatics than I was out of comic making. I felt more at home with animation than I had ever felt with drawing comics. Because of this realization, Ive become more comfortable admitting my grievances and being okay with it, rather than suppressing it like I had in years past. Also, in going to animation school, Ive gotten closer to turn Crescent Blue into a show like I said earlier (not there yet, but its closer to becoming a reality than it was 3 years ago), which has always been the goal from the beginning. So because of this, I dont feel as obligated or motivated to work on my comic as much as I used to. Im more comfortable with waiting than I used to be.
Now, like I said earlier, my comic making experience hasn't entirely been negative. There have been moments where I genuinely enjoyed making comics. An example being the Q&A strips I did for my comic's main character 3 years ago. I actually had fun making them which has not been something I've usually said when working on my main series. But there have been moments of joy there too, usually pages where the drama was ramped up or action scenes. But I think in regards to the first example, that worked because I went into that project knowing it would be a comic first, which is not something I've done with Crescent Blue. I've always seen comics as a means to an end; as a way for me to get my story out there before I had the means and skills to do it in animation. Plus, I had always imagined Crescent Blue as an cartoon first and found the changed Id have to make in order for it to work in comic form very limiting and frustrating. And now that I have the ability to work in animation, and as that intended goal gets closer, the drive to draw Crescent Blue as a comic has completely evaporated. But its not like I can just stop uploading comic pages and call it a day. I've already gotten this far with my comic and I would be lying if I felt there was a part of me that wanted to make this work. I have some ideas on what I could do to make it work, but I just wanted to hear what people here thought just to get some perspective. Maybe I've been approaching this with the wrong mentality the entire time, who knows!
Edit: I should clarify that I dont plan to make crescent blue animated by myself. I plan to do it once I have assembled a team because I know doing it by myself would take a lot longer than it would to make a single comic episode ^^'