I went back and took a longer look at the first half of my current work.
It was terrible.
My original plan was to make small edits here and there, but I quickly realized how fast-paced and shoehorned the romance was. I felt queasy about it. I've been going through and making hard edits everywhere to ease the pedal off the gas and to smooth out the story, but that feeling just won't go away.
I also remember someone telling me, "said is not dead," and I'm seeing now that I wasn't following their advice enough. Way too many dialogue descriptors to the point of being a serious aggravation to read. Working on fixing that too.
Losing viewership doesn't bother me as much as it once did, but it's still a bit of a pang to think I've lost a chunk of potential readers from these two problems. I've also thought about how preachy it might be, but I don't want to compromise the themes and messages.
Anyone else had this experience, where you just go through your earlier work and get hyper-judgmental and uncomfortable about it?
On a second note, what font size do you use? I've been playing around with it. Personally, I like it smaller (12) than default (15), but I could see it being less appealing to some. Now that I'm nearing the end of the story, now that my personal journey is about over - I'm thinking more about the reader and I'm wanting to fix it up a whole bunch.