My appreciation for this community is boundless. Thank you all.
@GlanceReviver gave me the PERFECT suggestion on bridging the gap and making the story flow properly and give credence to the character. So please everyone stand by, Ill make it right in the end.
Im also still struggling with my medical issues
But I see why Im coming off as such a jerk and hipcrit
I totally dont mean to and I apologize. Allow me to give a better explanation of my mindset regarding smut.....
Please dont think Im an ass becuase of my statements about smut. I dont want to get confused smut with erotic art. Its not the same. Where Im coming from, Ive been a professional illustrator since 1999. Im published by companies in 6 different countries. Ive struggled like every artist. I worked the comic book industry during its downfall in the late nineties and the gimmicks they used in the 2000s to save their billion dollar corporations at the expense of thousands of simple little comic book stores. I have seen the all mighty $$$ destroy everything. Ive seen artists struggle and I myself even went under when the economy tanked.
What I mean by smut is this.....
So an artist isnt getting the sales they want or need. Mostly because they are lacking proper skills. What is the first thing they do? They start throwing in a bullshit shower scene or their females get overly sexualized, whatever. Like, its a gimmick! Its not about ART
and that makes me mad. Because I spent 16 years pushing myself to heighten my skill and have people appreciate my art for what it is, not get suckered by a low brow gimmick. So please do not see my topless illustration as a gimmick. It will make sense, just give it a chance and see the story. Again, nudity and expression in this form is NEW to me!!!!!! This is my first sojourn into such a venture. In my entire career, regarding nudes, I have made 1 private commission sketch, 1 professional sketch, 1 "covered" nude painting where you dont see any nipples or anything. No full-blown nudity.
But I have spent decades admiring artists who make it look easy. They are so secure in their talent. I want that too. Boris Vallejo is doing this huge painting right now a Medusa by the Sea for a collector. And its GORGEOUS and nude. Julie Bell is stunning in everything she does and her female form (and she always goes for fitness models like my fiancee) are perfect. Like.....perfect.
Im not perfect :/ But I want to get there. and I believe this project has merit! I believe it in my heart! I just need to separate the art from the gimmick. and that is why I cherish this community and the help everyone is providing.
There is my strong feeling toward smut. Same idea like a XMEN or Superman or whatever arent making high enough sales. So what do they do? Kill someone off!!! Its a bullshit gimmick! And they bring the character back 3 months later anyway
Thats just like the smut card.
Erotic art is its own genre, Fantasy artists illustrate nudity in their genre. I recognize and do not demean those genres. and well, ..to be fair, Heavy Metal was all shock value and a lot of smut LOL HOWEVER some of the best artists go their start there and some GREAT ideas came from it! So meh, take it or leave it. It was pretty juvenile now and again. lol But really, some AMAZING art passed through those pages. that was legitimate
Ive seen such juvenile garbage, where there is no attempt at proper artistic skill
It demeans all artists who try to create nudity in a serious appreciative light. And those of us trying to make nudity acceptable get preconceived notions slapped against us because of it
Another reason for my strong feelings. and honestly Im SUPER laid back. I totally dont get strongly defense or emotional, except about this very thing. And I fear everyone now thinks Im an asshole 
My fiancee loves my art, she is my biggest fan. its sort of what brought us together. And she inspires me like nothing IVe ever experienced. She makes me whole as a person and an artist
She was a model before and did some nudes. So she isnt shy and isnt ashamed. She isnt like, pushing it out there. She hasnt done it in a few years and isnt looking to go back, but she is still proud of the hard work and accomplishment; as she should be. I think thats what spurred this project. I want her to still be proud of herself and hard work and give a new outlet for her to be appreciated.
I hope Im making sense. Im super sad I cannot string together the proper coherent thought to have everyone see what I want to accomplish. Like seriously depressed.