This!
I think I have the large reserve of hope, and I love finding my audience, but not getting a significant break dulls my desire to post in public. Still love writing, though, it’s just I wish I had excitement rather than expectation of failure when posting a new project.
I have seen stories of people not succeeding right away, and doing it with a later book, but it’s more common to hit it out of the gates. So, yes, as years go by, I just know that it’s me, not any other factor.