Dude, I'm gonna be real frank with you. You are challenging the wrong person here. I am mentally ill, very poor, don't know where I will be getting my money for rent next month, and I am switching between hypomania and depression daily. This is not the site to reach out for help. You will need to seek that from actual professionals. If you can't, do some research into coping mechanisms and reach out to friends.
I, for all my talent in art, have not made a single penny from it once. Did I complain? Yes. However, I grew up and understood my own responsibility in the situation. I got help for myself, and I researched methods of advertising my work. I am still learning. We all are. You complain here as if no one understands, but most of us are struggling. You are not unique in this struggle. This is not meant to be harsh, it's a helpful way of realizing that your problems do have solutions. Consider looking into some instead of only complaining. We are all struggling to get our artwork out there. Even artists with thousands of followers struggle to get money. And if money is your only goal, get a retail job. They suck, but that will give you stability.
So, I'm gonna leave this here and not continue to interact, because I can tell that you are more focused on self pitying than considering help. That's okay, but I recommend not doing it publicly because you will regret it. Instead, focus on yourself, stop tearing down others, and stop tearing down yourself. Because it does not help you, and it is only causing you to ruminate.