A major inspiration for my novel was my own struggle with OCD and associated fear of uncertainty. While my intention isn't for my character to officially have OCD, they do have a similar fear of the uncertain and an unhealthy need to try to control things that are essentially beyond their control. They accidentally reawaken the primordial god of chaos, and by developing a friendship (or perhaps queerplatonic relationship, I haven't quite decided yet) with this god, they learn to be okay with uncertainty and recognize that good things can come out of it, too.
Other inspirations include wanting to write about immortality and a long standing fascination with cults. Also wanting more nonbinary representation
Anyway, I just published the first chapter today. Would love some feedback and/or new subscribers so I can one day become visible on tapas: