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May 2021

Honestly, my greatest struggle is trying to balance being a mom and a creator and with a baby, it is hard. I am always scared I'm messing up at both or one of them though I care more about being a mom. However, I realize that it is a common struggle and it has a way of working out.

Walking into an art store is such a HIGH of possibilities.

... but even as a traditional artist, you end up buying the same handful of things. Do I REALLY WANT the shiny oil paints, the gorgeous pastels, or the fancy spray paints? God yes. Have I painted in oils since college, or spray paint since my best friend's wedding? Do I even LIKE using pastels? NO!

buys the same four pens, two erasers, and five sheets of paper

When I hurt my neck because I keep tilting my head instead of rotating the piece I'm working on.

As a writer, this is my problem.
You know those old people who speak what they write? Like when typing their passwords, they'd mouth the numbers? I'm kinda like that. I at least "vocalize" the dialogues and sometimes [for harder and more complex scenes] I need to act it out or else I would get lost with 11 pages full of "quotation marks" with no description. I can't seem to do things just by imagining, I need to see it for me to write.

Drawing/coloring on the wrong layer. I do it ALL THE TIME. Because I don't name my layers LOL. It's just an inconvenience but dang, does it annoy me.

My biggest writing issue, besides inspiration, is repetition.

Like, jesus becky, how many times in one paragraph did you say the word see, feel, or look? Six? Seven? But, oh no, you want to be more descriptive? Now you sound just arrogant and cocky with a bunch of over-the-top synonyms.

wheater, yes, wheater
Here is 8 months of summer so its always too hot to draw (no, not everyone has an AC my friends, in my country its a luxury and too expensive electricity bills so no ) so I cant concentrate well to draw and when winter (rainy season) comes, theres the electrical blackouts xD so no digital work can be finished on time and for analog, depending the paper you are using, the humidity will affect its texture ;w; and I end going to take a nap since the weather is nice and with the rain sound haha

My MC has 3 ahoge that are hard to draw from behind :doggo_shook: after so many years I guess I have to finally make some proper references from a few angles xD

Also "I used that nice brush for blank half a year ago... I wonder which one was that" opens a list of 5000 brushes, starts crying

When my cat eats my kneaded eraser a when I leave them out. Or that my kneaded eraser a always get a ton of animal fur in them! Or maybe that any of my art supplies get eaten by my dog when I leave them out. Having cats walk across my paper or my tablet as I'm drawing. The fact that I have no where to store oil paintings while they dry where animal fur won't get on it! Or when I have a full palette of paint and a cat steps on it and proceeds to track it all over the place!

And the quiet female's emerald orbs dragged slowly across the chiseled visage of the man that makes her scarlet life's liquid rush faster through her veins. Her painted lips split wide to reveal her almost pearl white teeth in a joyous reflection of her inner feelings that get evoked like wild fire any time her presence mingles with his.

Vs

She smiled at Bob.


.... Yep I know that struggle :')

I freak out every time I resize a page in Clip Studio as it pretends to freeze and threaten me with a crash to desktop.
didIsavedidIsaveDIDISAVE?!?!

This is now in my top ten list of most charming things I’ve ever heard. 🥲

When I'm doing traditional art, sometimes there are just those erasers that smudge instead of erase. You had ONE JOB

  • Me making mary sue characters characters with heterochromia and forget which color belongs to which side. Even with reference, I sometimes still forget to flip the canvas back.
  • Sometimes I draw the hand backwards. It happens sometimes.
  • Is the character sounds too much like me, or am I starting to sound like them after writing them for a while?
  • Me being proud that I can remember a word and use it in the sentence (not English speaker, do not laugh), but it turned out the meaning is different from what I remembered. Now I have to correct it in embarrassment, and never trust myself again.
  • How many times have I referred to this character by name in this paragraph? Wait, all of the sentences started with his name.
  • "Is it" is for questions, "It is" is for statements, what kind of no spik inglish fool do not get that? (me).

I do this too! I do most of my 'writing' in the shower or car, where I can speak through dialogue and conversations out loud! I jot it down afterwards.

Old age school students tip: clean the eraser first by rubbing it on the nearby wall (or any surfaces that won't dirty the eraser), it will scrape the troublesome part that will make the smudge.

Also, I believe in Pentel eraser superiority.

Some panels I dread making so much that I hold off on drawing them until the very last minute. Including backgrounds.

top 10 art related problems that I've (stupidly) done:

  1. Looking where is the ctrl+s button when I'm about to leave the room when I am drawing using pen and paper
  2. isn't this too smooth for a paper? - when I'm doing digital
  3. using two fingers to zoom in -- on a paper
  4. rotating the whole pen tablet while doing digital instead of rotating my actual canvas
  5. using an actual eraser to clean up lines instead of using ctrl+z during digital
  6. Why isn't it moving?!-- sees hand using an actual pencil instead of a stylus during digital
  7. Why is this not writing?-- sees hand using stylus instead of a pen
  8. waiting for the brush to switch color with the color i had in mind --- during traditional painting
  9. walking in art store, buys a handful of blank notebooks, arts and crafts materials then forget about them for about 1 month before actually using them then repeat
  10. when it comes to paints, one color is either too much left over or one tube isn't enough at all