Wow nearly 2k comments is a lot to read! XD i missed out on so much... i miss out on everything
All my shit started in 2016 and life has just been one giant FU to me since.
Left my cozy home in FL to help my grandparents who were in bad health in July 2016. In september my gramma had cardiac arrest and died for 8 minutes, somehow she was saved but spent 2 months in hospital. I helped grampa with bills, working 2 jobs, helped with home care when she came home. Worked 90hours a week until June. I had just started uploading to Tapas right around that.
Then my family forces me on vacation, a month in Wyoming fishing. Actually fun but once we got home, grampa called me lazy, a bum, a mooch and kicks me out not even 24hrs after being home. I move to SD with my parents because i have no savings left to get my own place
BECAUSE I USED IT TO HELP MY GRANDPARENTS.
In SD things got worse because they hate me making art and bashed me constantly. I worked 2pm to midnight then did commissions until 3 or 4 am (10am to midnight on weekends and got mad if I wasnt up at 7am. In December they gave me an eviction notice ON CHRISTMAS. In a card.
By now it had been 6 months since i updated my comic from working 2 jobs to try to save up and get a half decent car that would not die and being a maid for my parents. I move into my sisters home. I pay 500$ a month for a 6x6ft room in the basement and work a night shift (better money). So during the day her 4 kids wake me up all the time. I moved in in December 16, kicks me out in march 17 because i keep asking her kids to stop being so noisy (they are like ages 8 to 12, they are capable).
Got a car, but no home. So back to moms house. Fighting constantly. Work 530am to 4pm. Tired when i get home. My job sucks 10+ hours straight. No breaks. No sitting, only standing. No lunch breaks. (Sd law does not require breaks by law). I am on call 24-7 as an assistant manager so i NEVER get days off. I finally save enough for a small house (in october 17) with horrid insulation, no fridge, no bathroom sink but i can afford it. This is south dakota. It has been below 10F for DAYS. We finally went above 0 yesterday. My house is cold as hell.
I still work 90hrs a week, i have no internet (except my phone). No tV, i dont even have a monitor or dish. I have zero friends and after work i am so fucking tired i just have zero energy to draw. I updated my comic so irregularly because of life that I know people have zero interest. It grew until about 300 subs, then stopped. Hasnt grown since my posts became irregular. It pisses me off because I try and it fails anyway.
Webtoons acted the same, i stopped posting regularly, my subs stall or decline. I want to delete everything and start over.... but i have no way to keep arting right now and it kills me because i feel like a waste of space online and offline.
Rant over sorry.
