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Today has been the Monday from "buggy" hell. From the minute I step into the day gig I'm getting hit left and right with needy/buggy co-workers. Fer Pete's sake, give a dude at least an hour to sit down & get settled..!

Trying to mentally get back into the zone to work on my comic page- this rain isnt helping. I feel like I wanna eat some Chinese food, watch an action movie, and call it a night.

I honestly hate myself a lot and wish I had at least one friend irl

yeah but there weren't any that interested me. also I'm too shy to even join new things if it's not required

You'll find someone!! Freshman year is a hard year for making friends.
Tip- go for the shy ones. 50% of the time they're also looking for friends but are too shy

Sophomore year is a b*tch.
With the year coming to an end, the year decides to drop everything on us.

  1. Poem analysis that needs to be done a week from now. The writer, by the way, is the overachiever of Philippine culture (and its national hero), Jose Rizal.
    His novels are hard enough, and now we have to do his poems?
  2. Frakkin Science Fair tomorrow. So that means we're gonna defend our crapshoot of a thesis against 2 grade levels (with 8 sections each) who are trained in the fine art of ripping a thesis to pieces.
    Oh. And the infamous panelists.
  3. A batch song. Yes, we have to make a song commemorating the (lack of) achievements done by our batch. Due next week.
  4. And the stress of navigating the minefield called "social life".

Wow.
I really need to stop whining and start working...

So apparently there was no world music class today
I wrote a note about this in my book but completely forgot fml

I know that feeling, love XD

Or like, when you head out from the dorm earlier because you thought the class was in 30 minutes, but no, it was in an hour.. XD

Talked to my counselor about switching classes and told her about the guy in question (and started crying like a baby because I'm really unstable now apparently) and all she really said was
"Oh, him? I know him, he's a great guy. Go talk with him and figure things out"

AARRGH!! Basically now I'm morally obligated to stay in my history class. Because it's the "right thing to do". Nooooooooooooooo please. Please.i have enough stress in my life

........really???, that`s terrible :anguished:
Does she know you already tried to do that?,
(maybe you didnt told her due to the distress of the moment. I am asking just in case :pensive: )

I really hope this gets solved soon.
I wish i have an idea how to solve this. If for any reason i get one, i`ll tell you.

And of course, i am here if you need to talk.

Thanks again.. I'll think of a way :slight_smile:
Sorry for bringing my angst onto forums lol

Don`t worry,that is what friends are for.

Also, this topic is literally for that,

Da heck why??
What's with that counselor?

I don't know. Personally, it's fairly easy to sweet-talk a teacher. Or any person in authority.
Anybody could do it. You just need to be a little more persuasive.
And bring evidence. Like, cold, hard evidence. That should do the trick to make you switch classes.

Have you tried talking to someone higher than the guidance counselor?

But yeah, don't worry about putting angst down here. This is what this thread (and subsequent friends you meet in this thread) is for.

:slight_smile:

... of course that's what happened. :expressionless: OF COURSE.
this kid sound like a real weasel if the adults think he's great but he's bullying you.

maybe you could change seats in your class? sort of to deter as much interaction with this guy as possible.

wow, I'm annoyed (for you, not because you vented) :grimacing:

...there's nothing wrong with being sensitive! especially considering the stress you've been under?

I probably I KNOW would've done the same thing! ;u;

About to have a mental breakdown over here. went home yesterday evening and got a prompt for a laptop update. I ran the update, and now my laptop has wonked out- it keeps going in circles during the booting process. Sat down with one of my I.T. co-workers & trying to see if we can recover the settings.

..........because nothing says "I care about your well being and mental health!" than by saying bullshit like that... :slight_smile: ....I am so sorry. That councillor couldn't have been ANYMORE HORRIBLE AT THEIR JOB.

This is a terrible response.

Maybe the counsellor gets a lot of people who've had little fights coming through the door. I know some of my students fall out every week then make up again. It might help if you went back and stood your ground.

By the way, you shouldn't have to. The counsellor is paid to take every problem seriously. This is not how we are trained to respond to students and makes me think she is being wilfully ignorant.

Yeah..
She made it clear that she would be very "disappointed" in me if I had changed classes(she said it would be running away from my problems) , so I'm just sucking it up and staying I guess. Maybe the guy will stop ignoring me one day, but it's been two years soooo. Here's to hoping :slight_smile:

imo people do this because they know you wont respond publicly so they can get away with it.

a lot of passive aggressive folk never do expect to be called out on. tbh,
if they're giving you grief. loudly announce. "Why do you never listen to me?" or "THATS OKAY I GUESS I DONT MIND APPARENTLY"
another one is make a joke to people in their presence about them. thats something i do a lot. like i remember this 1 dill weed talked down to me all the time and i passive aggressive out maneuvered them by joking loudly about how they talk to people like their stupid. 'cause then if it becomes confrontational. your like "it was a joke :confused: yikes why u so sensitive"

like i know thats hyper douchey, but you gotta just out maneuver them the one time and they back off.

i use to be a total ass-hat when i was your age. thats why i know this.

running away. from your problems.

there's so much bull in that statement I could open up a steakhouse.

edit: I cannot believe she's making you feel bad for wanting a better learning environment! :frowning:
I'm not being much help, so i'll stop giving lip. but jesus... I really hope things get better for you, dawg.

(if I may ask, have you talked to your mom about this at all? do you think she would vouch for you to switch classes? sometimes parental involvement is necessary in these situations... especially considering your counselor isn't taking you seriously enough.)

I was always told this phrase if there's no solution then there's no problem to begin with.
So don't stress out over that. I mean we can't we friends with everybody we have this phrase in my country "I am not a gold coin for everybody to like me".

If there's bullying involved then that's another more serious matter.

I can't find the original post for this convo and I missed it but I'm assuming this is about some idiot bulling you. And I think you're in.....highschool?

My sympathies.

Too bad the universe didn't play out where we were in school together. I would openly beat that idiot. I was a violent person in school. But then we probably wouldn't even know each other, lol. My group of friends were all big scary nerds. Which was odd. Play Yu-gi-oh, watch anime, teach bullies hard lessons...

edit: inb4 that solves nothing. That's just how I was back then.

Argh no. The stuff you've told us is out and out bullying.

Can you go to somebody higher? Or threaten to? I bet that'd light a fire under her.

Alright @dawgofdawgness , i got an idea. And it involves the truth. Try to apologise once more. (i know, it sucks, but is just one shot more). If he doesn`t forgive you try this:

Tell your counselor you already tried to apologise (which is true), but he didn`t want to listen/didt forgave you (which is also true). Then tell her he probably is not ready to forgive,(also true) and you think the healthiest thing for him and you is give him space. (also, completely true)

Sometimes you have to speak to people in their language. The counselor must see you are trying to do the right thing (which is true too) to be convinced.

Is not healthy for neither of you if this conflict escalates. I hope this gets solved soon.

@craicin man, if only I had the guts to do that.. I haven't even worked up the courage to try and talk to him after he rejected me. I can't exactly manage a "hello" so I'm just quiet in class now. It wouldn't be so bad if it weren't for the fact that one of my closest friends is in my class and I'm pretty much obligated to talk

@TheThoughtfulBoxful thank you again! I haven't told anyone about this other than two of my friends... And forums, because I know you guys won't snitch hahaha

@ISNEKO wish I had big scary nerd friends right now :confused:

@Rhombik Unfortunately I don't think I can do anything about that anymore. My counselor was very reluctant to let me switch classes in the first place, and she said that it might not even be possible. So I told her I would just stay in my current class. I could try and talk to someone higher, but it's very possible that there aren't any spaces in other classes now, since the class I'm in right now is the only one that isn't full.

@DiegoPalacios :cry: Really wish I could do something about it.. The best I can do for now is to avoid this person, maybe try one more time to get him to talk to me. Who knows what will happen?

I've sorta been following the story love, and I do think you might need to consult another adult in the matter. If it is this bad, there may be a chance it will escalate. Now, I don't know this guy like you know him, but again, bullying is bullying, no matter what.

And honestly? As a person who's been a victim of bullying myself, I feel this guy is being unbelievably petty. I understand there was some rift between you two in the past, but you were willing to step up and accept your fault. That takes a lot of courage and growth to do. He doesn't have to forgive you, no, but him going out of his way to purposefully make you uncomfortable when you've apologized and meant it and have not done anything to him since...that's very petty and unhealthy behavior. In fact, it makes him a hypocrite -- why give back the treatment you were given (or at least something similar)?

I've been a victim, but I moved passed it. I didn't forgive my bully, but I didn't go out of my way to be spiteful because I just had other things to worry about. And I certainly never felt the need to bully them or anyone else for that matter. Maybe he's not passed whatever when down between you, but he should handle himself much better.

I think going to an adult, someone you trust, needs to happen. Because this is affecting your ability to function in your class, and that can affect your ability to perform there as well. And I feel your counselor believed in him because you went to her and he wasn't there. So she most likely went to him with what YOU said and he did some "oh, it's just a misunderstanding".

So you might need to sit down, the both of you, and talk it out with an adult ( if not more -- like your parents). Because this can't and shouldn't, continue. His attitude shouldn't continue like this because it actually makes me wonder how he's like with other people or how he could potentially be like.

These are my two cents, and you shouldn't rush if you're still uncomfortable. But please -- make sure you have people around you to support you and work with you through this. This is not something you should endure just because "I did wrong in the past, so this is what I deserve". You also owned up to it, and meant it with your heart. If he can't recognize that, that's his problem.

@Jenny-Toons that was very meaningful :cry:
Thank you for the advice.. I really hope the problem doesn't escalate.
I'm sorry you had to go through bullying when you were younger! And to everyone who had to go through that for that matter.

@DiegoPalacios
I guess.. I Just don't feel too comfortable talking with my mom about this. For now it's not too bad but if the situation does get worse, I'm definitely going to tell her what's going on.

Of course, love. It's never a fun thing. But hey -- if it's taught me anything, it's to not be afraid to stand up. Whether that's talking to an adult (in my case, it was my maternal mother) or fighting back (it did get physical because it had escalated to that extent). Just gotta give them the business sometimes.

Might not know why they do it, but the "why" doesn't excuse the "what".

I just hope you're doing your best, love. I hope it won't get that bad, but just keep on trying or ignoring him, whichever one gives you more relief.

@dawgofdawgness
At least he doesn't force you to do stuff. That would be hell for anyone...

There's no shame in running away, you know?
Just think about it as a strategical retreat.
Maybe tell someone about it. A teacher you're close with? A friend who's really close with a teacher? The case just goes through the grapevine.
If things go bad, you could ask a letter from the parents to let you switch. Triplesigned, underlined, and highlighted in Day-Glo.

(The next solution requires a lot of balls. Just a radical solution.)
If you really want to talk to him... you could tap him, call him for "a little chat", move somewhere quiet, and then let him rant about what he hates about you.
If he protests, you could make a huge spectacle about it. Raise your voice, act dramatic. Drama is the key. No drama = no crowd pressure = him not spilling the beans.
If a teacher is there, then good. He'll send your case to the top with a seal of "Urgent Priority".
And there, maybe, the (trash bag of a) guidance counselor can redeem herself. She could hopefully change her mind on the person.

But honestly, we got your back.
If you need help, there's a whole lot of us to talk to.
(Just don't complain if you get tired typing out those replies. You don't need to talk to each and every one of us, you know?)

EDIT: Assumed gender of guidance counselor. Changed pronouns to female instead of male.

Guess I'll just share my story.
Honestly, I think the popular group in my school has gone too far.
(I mean, really, my group calls them the Dickwad Squad. Can things get any worse?)

Okay.
So, I have these two friends. I'll call them Kan and Kul-Kul.
They're the best of friends, and I usually see them hang out together at the back (or with us) talking about whatever. Like, for example, Ace Combat, or Final Fantasy VI.
Lately, I became friends with them as well. They're nice guys when you get to know them.
Kan was hanging out with a few members of the Dickwad Squad, and one of them (I'll name him Starrick) told him to drop Kul-Kul in order to hang out with them.

That's a douche move if I haven't seen any.
Dropping your best friend to hang out with another group?
I mean, sure, friends are kinda assholes, but they're good assholes. Those guys just want to use you until you're nothing but a husk.

So now, both of them are kinda enraged at the Dickwad Squad.
And honestly, I'm worried.
Anger can make you do lots of things. And I'm pretty sure they can do a whole lot of harm with that anger they have against them.

I'm not opposed to them. I mean, I'd beat down all of them, any time. Just give me a dos por dos or a pipe, any time.
They just need to give me one more reason.

Back to the point.
I don't want them to risk themselves any further, you know?
Just snub them to the ends of the Earth. If they demand an answer out of them, they could try to get out (so the others could know that they tried to escape this). If that doesn't work, well, they're free to punch the lights out of the Dickwad Squad.

Okay so I recently recovered from an injured elbow in my drawing arm... only to have an accident and cut my other hand really badly. Now typing is really hard. Sure, I can draw since my dominant arm is better... but I'm in even more pain than before.
This morning I changed the bandage pad, and when I took it off the scab tissue was still new so it was super sensitive and I had a rush of pain so bad all the blood just rushed outta my brain and I got really nauseous......... almost fainted / threw up / both in my mother's bathroom. RIP

Nothing has ever hurt that much in one go. And I've been hit my a car twice.

I woke up a few days ago to a strange smell. Thought it was smoke. Heart started to pound. Thought about what if the flat burns down. Talked myself into going back to sleep so I can die without effort and not make my mom so sad that she would be if I actively offed myself. Didn't burn to death, dunno where the smell came from.

Depression is fun. When I was walking to my psycho therapy session everytime a car went past me my brain was screaming to jump infront of it. I'm too much of a wuss though.

Can't really comment and help the above post :frowning:

My own little rant is a small one on some of the comments that I get. Not every series I draw and write is a yaoi, just because my most popular series is a yaoi. There may be guy x guy jokes, but it's not the main focus.

I just wanna bitch about how some pages I draw get a lot of traffic and others don't when you expect them too cause there's more content and you just feel.like.crap :slight_smile:

I have met two people who had depresion and overcame it, and both had something in common. they set themselves a goal to overcame it and do the full proccess.

You may not have realized it, but i think you are stronger than what you believe. Even in your moments of grief, you revive a topic spreading positivity(the one you created in the first place), and this helps a lot of people, you gave a lot of people a reason to smile and feel good about themselves.

Being strong is not about never falling, being strong is about getting up when you fall. And i know you can do it.

I hope the therapy works for you, You make a great difference here for the better.

The least i can do was to give back some positivity :wink:

Here, here! :smiley:


@Mari I think you're a lot nicer than you give yourself credit for. :slight_smile::heart:
I know it must be hard, but every day is a chance for life to get better. You'll get through this !!