The watercooler: a place to chat

[feardeer]

Thanks! I wish I could answer with more positivity, but unfortunately it's impossible for me to see a therapist right now. I know what causes it to happen, and I have no idea what to do about the symptoms. I usually just power through and try to keep my mind occupied. I have a lot of anxiety, and have found various ways to deal with different aspects of it (with varying degrees of success), but this particular foe is too powerful for me.

But anyway, I don't want to turn this into a therapy session haha. Just wanted to know if anyone else had this problem. :>

[minerrale]

I'd be willing to bet that most of us "creative people" face or have faced this kind of issues at varying degrees. This is why we create! We turn the pain and the hardships into worlds full of color, the ugliness into beauty, the reality into dream. You're not alone, and you're strong! Just remember to breathe

[LordVincent]

I'm having awful chest dysphoria right now and top surgery is so far away I'm a low income guy and I can't get it through state offered healthcare because the "medical professionals" are so outdated and toxic that they almost made me commit suicide last time I was in contact with them.

Usually my voice helps carry me through it because so much of my confidence relies on it, but it's going through another slump due to deepening development so I can't even sing right now.

[ISNEKO]

Wishing you the best. You're a tough mofo for going thru with being true to yourself.

If that makes any sense.

[LordVincent]

Thank you, hopefully it will calm down soon. I'm working as hard as I can to improve my income, hoping I can maybe get surgery next year. Maybe.

I don't like to just sulk, I prefer to distract myself or actively work towards a solution. But sometimes it just gets overwhelming ^^"

[feardeer]

I hope you can get there soon, man! I'm kinda the same way in that I don't like to dwell on these things, but have also been struggling with dysphoria more than usual lately. There's not really much you can do but what you're already doing, right? I don't know your story, but I'm sure it's been a lot of work to get where you are now. Remember to be proud of how far you've come and keep chugging along.

If you ever need a sympathetic ear to vent to, feel free to hit me up! There's lots of kind people who might understand what you're going through.

[minerrale]

I've been following your adventure with these issues through the little bit you let out on the author's notes of BloodRoot, just popping by to say you're incredibly strong and courageous for following this path!
Really hope you'll get better soon, mate.
And if it helps, you're not alone, we're all here to support you!

[Pinwheel]

So I'm starting to think about committing suicide again, the problem is that I always back out of it at the last moment. It's almost gotten to the point where I wonder why bother I'm just going to chicken out and I can't help but hate myself for being such a coward. Sorry.

[Jenny-Toons]

Because I worry that this might get drowned out in this thread (and that sometimes does happen), I definitely recommend that you also check out this thread here for more emotional support and for more geared on help from others who are have gone through some of your experiences or still have some experience with what you deal with

We all have a bad day, some of us chew through it, some of us laugh it off, and some of us bottle it up. Here you can let it fly out, this is about giving emotional support to those who need it and not professional advice (unless of course someone really does have a background in the career). You cannot deride or be a meanie in this thread, this is meant to be a positive and uplifting thread. TL;DR Let it out! Speak freely and hopefully someone can give you advice.

But as an overall response from myself, this isn't something you have to feel you have to go at alone. There are a good number of people here who really do care for each other's well-beings, and you are definitely included in that.

Is there anyone or people you interact with outside of the internet that you trust? Have you told them about what you're enduring and how it has affected you? And have you sought out any professional help?

I might not know you personally, but I do think that no one should feel that have to go at this alone and just bare with this. I think one of the best steps to getting stronger is telling someone you trust and then taking steps that help you to your recovery.

I think the Emotional Support Thread have more people in there that can provide more concrete help on where to go from here, and I honestly believe that there are people here definitely more qualified than I am that can go into more depths with you and help you through this.

I wish you all the luck, love. But I and everyone else are here for you.

[Campbell_Million]

Please don't do this.

[dawgofdawgness]

Pinwheel, I couldn’t possibly know what you’re going through right now. But I PROMISE you, if you stay strong, you’ll get better. This sad time you’re goung through will NOT last forever. Hang in there, I promise you things will get better. It’s important to reach out to others and tell them you need help. Yes it takes courage but it’s important. I didn’t tell my mom about my depression but I’m so glad I did.

In general, remember that not everything is your fault. It’s important to do a reality check once in a while and focus on positive things. I know that might sound generic, but things WILL get better. Hang in there.

[directorador]

I could tell you why you back out, but I shouldn't and I shant.
I have tried killing myself before, and it left me in a lot of pain for a long time. Don't hate yourself for not trying, it's better to reach out to people. I was becoming schizophrenic when it started for me, it wasn't what I really wanted to do.

when I get really dark, I write, or draw, or make music. I just choose to be creative rather than destructive. and it's been 7 years without another attempt.

[feardeer]

You're not a coward. Being afraid doesn't make you a coward. There is a reason for that fear. Try to find the things that make life worth living, the things that bring you any amount of joy or fulfillment, no matter how small they may be, and focus on them with all your strength. It's hard, I know, but you are worth that effort. It's easy to sink down deeper into depression, easy to let it consume you, which is why it is so helpful to have another hand to grasp, someone to help you pull yourself up. Talk to someone, and if you have no one you trust, keep coming here and talk to us. There are many kind people here, as you can see.

Remember, you're not weak and you're not a coward. Your feelings are valid, and you deserve to be heard.

[TheThoughtfulBoxful]

Oh, Pinwheel, please don't.

A lot of good advice has already been left here, so I wont linger. Instead, some words of (hopefully) encouragement: Life is full of challenges and hardships. Sometimes we get weighed down by our emotions, and end up in a dark place mentally and spiritually. But guess what? Those feelings always change, if not tomorrow, then eventually. It might not seem that way right now, but it's true. Give those feelings a chance to change.

Your life is precious and worth living. Stay strong!

--boxful out.

[DiegoPalacios]

Hi Pinwheel. You are not alone here, and all the replies you got are proof of it.

As @dawgofdawgness said, dont blame yourself about having depression.
Having depression is Not your fault just like a concrete block randomly falling over a person is not that person`s fault.

Also, as @Jenny-Toons said. If you are not getting help, i would also recommend you getting professional help. Don`t be ashamed about getting into therapy. We are humans, is okay to ask for help when needed.

Overcoming depression takes time and therapy, but is completely possible. There is a calm after the storm.

In these links there are lots of advice from people who had some experience with depression.

Hi everyone: The purpose of this topic is to help everyone who is currently having depression. If you have any solid advice for people with depression, please, feel free to share it. If you are currently depressed, i can tell you this: I met some people who had depression and overcame it a long time ago. It took some time, it took some work, but i want to assure you, that is posible to get out of this. Being strong is not about never falling down, is about getting up. We are here to give…

like the title said, my friend is clinically (went to the medic and is on pills) depressed, they just fell into and emotional crisis via voice messages with me, basically stating that they are worthless losers, hates all technology, are useless as artist and just wants to disappear forever. They can't find the motivation or want to draw or even do anything, they recently moved from Venezuela to the US and they told me that I'm their only trusted friend. they want to talk with me but they feel …

Wish you the best Pinwheel and hope this helps. If at least one of these things helped you at least a bit, it was completely worth it.

[dawgofdawgness]

Does anyone else randomly have phrases/ sentences stuck in their heads for weeks? It's like with catchy songs, but with catchy words.

I've had "I've been meaning to ask you a question" stuck in my head for 5 days now...

[ISNEKO]

I get lines from old cartoons.

"Don't thank me! Thank Justice Fruit Pies!"

[Rhombik]

"I've been meaning to ask you a question"

Yes, weirdly, "I moustache you a question" gets stuck quite often.

[Kann]

I've been stuck lately with "Not like this" and I have no idea why.

[VibrantFox]

reminds me of an ancient sonic quote but I'll never remember what game

"I can't go on, not like this"