ah, i understand. i also thought japan and china were the same thing when i was kid, and i always wanted to wear traditional chinese clothes whenever it's UN day in our school and got jealous at my cousins since they were studying at a school where chinese (idk which one) was being taught (although, once the chinese teachers have left and was now being run by the locals, it now only teaches numbers and some alphabets in the elementary.)
Q>Q this is scary to think about but you're right.
with how you fluent with english, that with chinese from your college year and hopefully soon, and i think it's going to be easier this time since you already experienced the language before, and french tho forgotten and also russian, your native. you are what i aim to be.
Have you went to japan?