I was really salty for a very petty thing. It is a bit embarassing to say what it is, but I was late to fill the slot for "Draw this in your art friend's style" before it filled full. I've always craving to see how people perceive my work, no one ever done that to me, and I messed that one chance
Then I had a dream. In that dream somebody shows me my art, but it's greatly improved from my current level now. It has the soul of my traditional drawing, the smoothness of my digital drawing, and better technicalities; yet I still knew it's my drawing.
That person said " See this? When you've reached this level; you won't sweat about anything anymore, you don't need to care about everything anymore."
After struggling to wake up from sleep paralysis, I thought about it. Yes, I will become that good; fuck you.