I was really depressed about my art journey, like I wrote above
and thought about things a lot. I“m not getting forward with
my comic journey and I“m already old.
I feel like I“m at the art skill level I want to be. I trained over 10 years
and relearned fundamentals, did a lot of figure drawing and so
on. I“m happy with that, far from perfect but good enough for me.
This means, I would like my own drawings if I would see them as
a reader.
Then I found out that I“m really lousy at storytelling, even though
I have more ideas than I can ever draw. I talked to hundreds of
writers and couldn“t find one to work with.
I set myself a crazy deadline now with radical consequences.
If I fail to upload my book cover and then the first episode then
I“ll quit. I will still continue drawing, I have customers and I“ll make
illustrations. I currently have a customer who wants a giant comic
page. But I“ll quit chasing to create my personal project because
I just don“t get it done and it starts to make me unhappy.