I hated being blamed for literally doing absolutely nothing and for be called a liar (when they know that I'm not the one to lie, but still called me liar anyway), lazy, when I'm the one doing the chores while my sister just chillin out with her bf and slept until midday and family members that visited usually make the house messy (and hurrah! I got yelled for not making the house like s*it and not tidiying [is this the right word?] the mess they created).
And my family sense of humor is pretty much fat shaming (well, I'm pretty fat insert forever alone meme), and self shaming me 'for my own good'.
This is basically mental abuse (yes, I said it myself).
If I said something, I'm talking back. If I said nothing, I'm deaf.
Most of the time I feel nothing, but when I do, I usually feeling pretty pissed and ended up getting sad when I'm over thinking.
Oh, btw, I'm the kind of peoples that have this 'dead' (?) and serious (Said someone) kind of gaze, so I would ended up 'glaring' when I looked at peoples (one of the many misunderstanding on my life) when I'm just looking at them normally.
I mean, I'm just looking at their face, talking at me, its not like I'm here to kill them.
Thats why I don't particularly looking at the faces of the peoples who said that to me. Or in my back.
*edit. I'm ended up btching. Should I erase this post instead?