I think most of my stories tend to have two main themes:
- Trauma doesn't strengthen, it destroys
- We all have to find our own happiness, no matter what the world tells us to want
Theme 1 is a more recent development, due partly to me always having had a morbid fascination with suffering, partly to growing up and becoming a smarter writer, and partly as a reaction to how I see past traumas portrayed so often in media, especially in anime.
So often you get backstories like "Character A watched their entire family slaughtered in front of them and was subsequently sold into slavery, and only escaped when they became an assassin for hire...but now they're on Team Hero and they have friends, so everything's okay! Let's watch them get embarrassed at school (because all of that happened before they even turned SIXTEEN) and have lots of fluffy, fanservice-y adventures~!"
...And it makes me want to slam my head into a wall, repeatedly. >_< Like, that's not how this works; that's not how any of this works!
And the worst part is it doesn't even have to be that bad. Any trauma, whether it's physical or psychological or unusual or commonplace, is supposed to just melt away as soon as some cute protagonist character worms their way into your heart. Writers just refuse to take it seriously, beyond 1 or 2 'sad memory' scenes.
I don't mean to say that new friends and a new situation can't help with healing, but I think to act as if it ends there is just superficial, insulting writing.
Trauma destroys...and you have to rebuild. And the full process of recovery is messy and hard and it can affect your personality and relationships for years. It may never truly 'end'. But it's reality, and I want to show that reality in my writing, even in just a slightly subtle PG way.
Theme 2 is something I've always had with me...I used to think of it as an act of rebellion (growing up ND will do that to you) but now I think it's something everyone needs to realize, even neurotypical people.
Denying yourself happiness for its own sake proves nothing, and it solves nothing. People will tell you otherwise so that they can control you and force you to conform, but at the end of the day...it just makes you less happy. Why would you want that??
Most of my characters' main struggle is just to find a way to live a happy life. You may not see it right away, they may try to hide it or cover it up with adventures and heroics, but usually near the end of the story it's clear that they just want to survive and be happy. In their darkest hour (hopefully beforehand, though) they realize that's all that they truly need.
DotPQ is kind of unique in that I destroy the outer conflict halfway through the story (as in, at the beginning of the current S2). So basically all our main characters have left is to figure out how they can find happiness with the rest of their lives...and yet it's actually harder than just living in suffering like they did before. ^^;
Because, as I said with Theme 1, trauma destroys. And they're stuck wondering how to rebuild, or if it's even safe to start rebuilding. Or if they're even capable.