First of all, I got into nonfiction writing as a way to process loneliness awhile back. I'd turn my journal entries into these surrealist, almost fantastical vignettes to try to help myself see the beauty in myself and in life in that empty feeling time. i've yet to combine that feeling with true fiction, but i can definitely see how powerful that can be for creativity. <3333
My comic, like nearly everything I've ever written, was a dream. More specifically, a terrible sleep paralysis hallucination. I've got chronic sleep paralysis, and those experiences have inspired a lot. But it's more than that, because, in addition to this very un-fun hallucination, there was a man there who has been appearing in my dreams for YEARS. An entirely unique person, nobody I've ever seen in my life. And that's not strange for me, I create random people in my dreams all the time, many of whom are reoccurring.
But this this one stands out. Because had the most horrible vibes I'd ever felt. Whenever I'd see him in a dream, I'd get this awful feeling, like I NEEDED to wake myself up. So I combined this man with my hallucination and boom, there's a horror story. maybe it's a way to conquer him, and everything else that haunts me. or maybe it's not that deep and i just wanted to draw my nightmare robots.
Before making his simple, comic depiction, I drew Duckie realistically, exactly how he appeared in my dreams. It was HORRIFYING to look at. I'll make an excuse to include that realistic drawing of him in my actual comic at some point, but for now it just gets to haunt me!!
