The day I finally feel I do not do this for absolutely nothing? They day I will feel I am actually listened and look at and have a worth as a human being? The day I will finally have confidence and feel like a proper creator? Of course I would be more motivated creating, because now more people wants it. I would also like to keep it as long as possible.
I don't get why people are overwhelmed and afraid.
It is an opportunity, and at costs of increased demand and expectation. Much better than having nobody listens or look at you, and you never get to be something who have a worth in this world. Even if it might stress me up, it is still better with all the opportunity opening. I might miss the old relaxed days, but I have no right to whine and it would be ungrateful and disrespectful to those who work harder than me but never got this opportunity. It is like when you are promoted by lottery and given twice the pay, but complains the work is harder.
Things have costs. Perfectly balanced as it should be.