I honestly have debated on taking a break to fully process out my mental health and relationship because I am very passionate about creating and I do love my characters, but I do think I started off on the wrong foot of "Make something that's sure to be super successful first" right out of the gate when I first created the Dragoons back in 2011 when I was young, Naive, and thought I knew everything about production and writing due to reading TV Tropes, watching comedy reviewers obsessively, and watching a few animation behind the scenes features on my DVDs. I did love my characters, but I also was thinking "This Avocado could be my ticket to the stars!" as well when working on it and thus getting upset when my stuff didn't turn out like I envisioned it due to me still being a beginner.
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Expanding on that fearing what I can;t control thing, I guess I also worry too much about people thinking negatively of me from what I say or who shows up to read my stuff or something like goingf back to me taking with Darth about Pewdiepie and the whole "Nazi" shenanigans, are people gonna think I'm sympathetic with anti-semites because I used Pewdiepie as an example of people who screwed up and done irresponsible things but (to mixed success) tried to (Extremely half-heartedly in Felix's case) make up for that yet a lot of people still really only view himas a Nazi because of that incident if that makes sense? Ort given that my family and other people I know IRL (many of which are from my church and hold a deep value of trust and respect for me, especially regarding taking care of their pets) gonna see me publish Dragoons or any of my other animal centric stories that are wholesome, but maybe depending on what happenes through no fault of my own, get the comments and social media of the flooded with people horny on main for my characters? Will that reflect poorly on me and also maybe ruin their trust in me? Especially regarding them trusting me with atheir animals? (my only main source of income at the moment) if that makes sense? Like, I;m with you, I don't wanna smooch the doggie, but if a lot of people who do want to smooch the doggie are vocally fans of my stuff, are people I know gonna think I wanna smooch the doggie if that makes sense? It's the fear of the unknown and my struggles with internal validation that I'm worried about the most it seems.....