AKA Doki Whines that No one Agrees with Her, Part III
...Seriously, though, I think it's more like, with each one of these topics, I'm getting closer to the ACTUAL root of my confusion.
This is kind of therapeutic for me...in every group, even on the internet, I'm always the odd one out, somehow. But now I actually get to ask why! =D
So I think I've figured it out. It's like...in a community of mostly subsistence farmers, I'm just growing a rose garden.
We're all into agriculture...and we all want big, healthy, beautiful plants. But the reasoning is different. The people growing plants to survive on might see some of my ideas as frivolous or ignorant, and I might see theirs as overdramatic and myopic. That is, until we understand that we're all growing different kinds of gardens.
...Frick, I love metaphors~. But in plain English, I'm just not doing art to live.
Sure, I have motivations; strong ones. I want to grow my audience and create the most amazing things I can. But I'm mainly in this for "the thrill of the hunt"; for the simple satisfaction of achieving something great. I love the challenge, but I don't want my life to depend on it. If it did, I think I'd be dead. ^^
On the other hand, those who do want to make a living out of what they do have to think about things much more seriously. They not only have to do the best they can for themselves, but also help shape the culture around their work so that it's actually conducive to survival, and stays that way.
Personally, I think I have more fun growing my roses. ^^ But when I want to buy a carrot or an apple, I'm grateful that the people who cultivate them are still around.
