Anybody else here who is depressed?

Haah yeah, probably. I was seeing a Psychologist for few weeks to help me deal with my social anxiety long enough to do a board interview (a military interview, 100x worse than a civilian one.), and we got far enough to start talking about depression along with the the possibility that I may have been in a dark place for a really long time now. Buuuut then she moved across the country, and I discharged from the military, leaving me with no insurance and or good income. Lol

Honestly I'm probably not the best person to post here, I've become pretty used to being down, to the point it doesn't really affect my life anymore. It's just sort of there, and now a part of my personality I guess. Although the things that have given me a sense of catharsis is delving into horror and tragedy, it feels nice for me to expose and explore my awful feelings through awful stories/art. I grew up watching horror movies, as a teen I drew gore to help get out my frustrations with my chaotic hormones and feeling bad, now that I've chilled out I'm venting my experiences and feelings via a comic.

I guess in short, the thing that has helped me be able to stay creative is using my art to vent those feelings. Not only has it helped when I couldn't afford to get professional help (nor when I was comfortable with the idea.), but it keeps the creative juices flowing.
Good luck! I hope you are able to get place soon!

Me too, I get depressed for long periods of times and it will be like this for the rest of my life. Fortunately I have been in treatment for years and now I know the signs. I used to blame myself for being lazy but now I know it's a condition.

Since this apathy is part of the illness it's normal to get stuck creatively. What helped me a lot is to exercise with music that is inspiring for my comic or the project I want to think about. I just let myself go. Other than that I don't by get more creative until the serotonin starts doing it's work. In general I try to not pressure myself and let my brain heal because I tend to be super harsh.

I send you all a huge hug, stay strong

I should be more depressed than I am given my mood disorder, i'm surprised I don't feel like i'm dead inside. I'm stuck unemployed living in an unhealthy family situation. I really hope I find a job and move out, I think that will give me peace. I honestly would rather just cut ties with them than do one of the pointless "oh they weren't that bad" spiels, cause forgiveness and connection just causes you to normalize their behavior and think they'll change.

Been there. I like to remember a quote from a former agent I had in the 1980s. "Don't f**k with creativity. It never comes when you want it to."

I'm sad when people I know are depressed and I feel kind of helpless because there's really nothing I can do. But I CAN say, if you have people in your life who love you and care about you, whether friends or family or social acquaintences, you're never alone. And when you're not alone, you can get through anything.

I felt like that once last year yeah when I had creative block for 3 months and it was about solute torture for me. I couldn't write or draw anything so much so that i felt like i was going insane. i decided to go on a month hiatus because any further i would go crazier. There's always times to create and then there's where you need a break.

So I heard my people were having a party.

Sending hugs and support to everyone here.

In terms of right now... I think it's important for everyone to remember that life is really, really difficult these days, wherever in the world you may live. We're in the middle of a pandemic. The environment is doing weird and terrifying things. Various democracies are doing weird and terrifying things. Every day is a new flip of the coin.

And that means that it's more important than ever to be kind and gentle with yourself. At this point, our one job is just to survive this time as well as we can manage. We need to allow ourselves a lot of grace. We need to rest more. We need to make an effort to spend time doing the things that can make us a little bit happy, even if it's only for a short time. Treating ourselves the same way we would treat a struggling friend or family member -- with compassion -- should be the top priority.

(Brought to you by a woman who just had a small panic attack about the 2020 U.S. election and spent two-and-a-half hours hashing out all the feelings with a friend.)

Twitter was a mistake in general and this time in particular.

I’m not sure if creative people get more depressed than others. But from my perspective, it is a state of mind that comes with.

I feel it is a Yin and Yang. Maybe it is like athletes, you can't run all the time without hurting your muscles.
Me, I use my muscle called the brain, and I can't be creative all the time without burning out. And with that comes depression.

I live with this all the time. I know that the sun will shine after the rain. I know I will burn out and I know depression will pass and I will be back in the game.

I just need to focus on the positive side of life. When I’m down I look forward to when it is over and not focus on the pain, if I do that I will only stay longer in the depression.

Me too. On medication at the moment: Sertraline and Mirtazapine. Since then I work on my comic. I have not drawn for 30 years. I know what I am drawing from. From life experiences and from the view of a scientist

I am depressed... all the time honestly, but when it's particularly bad (like recently) my creativity just turns off, and the only activities my brain will kindly allow are crying and passing time with something that requires 0 mental effort. (eg. mindlessly scrolling social media, playing stupid games on my phone, aimless internet browsing)
I have pretty much no friends and my family either doesn't care or is even worse off so I can only count on myself for support and motivating myself, and of course it's super-reliable...
How do people even make vent art??? You don't become a different person, completely unable to do anything art-related, when your mood hits the "I wish I were dead" point???
The only thing I can do is try to make as much art as I can in between depressive episodes, but it's very easy to turn this short downtime into a longer artblock - I stop drawing for two days, I might as well stop it for life.

I was diagnosed with Major Depression when I was a 10, so it is sort of something I dealt with most of my life. I have had little luck with medication with some not working or causing really bad side effects.

I never found therapy helpful. I am poor so my selection is limited and most don’t have a good background knowledge to deal with someone like me.

What I mostly do is just keep myself distracted, so I don’t have to think about it. However, I think most of my depression is rooted in being lonely and feeling rejected from society. So I like to write about people finding connections and friends.

I feel you @mbindhammer I feel you.
I have the diagnose ADD (that's ADHD without the H) meaning that my brain is newer shutting down. I get meds and it helps me to not burn out that much.

Wish you the best.

Same to you. Like I wrote in my comic, episode "No filter". I have lost the ability to see the world through a filter. Everything collapses upon me unfiltered. I have a wife who loves me and a daughter, but I cannot stop the self-destruction. Maybe we should show our art here, which was created during such crises. That would interest me.

I don't have depression but I do have Schizoaffective which causes depressive episodes. I can empathize with you all because it can be hard. I'm a bit of the opposite where I retreat into my art and writing because I find it comforting. I've had people take advantage of my vulnerable states in the past to use me for various things and it hurts because I always just wanted friends and to share my stuff. That's all.

Luckily nowadays I have a close group of friends who I get to speak with almost every day. And I've been with the same boyo for over ten years. (He's not on here, but I love you, Mike! ) I did most of my suffering it feels like in middle school and high school lol. Back when everyone was catty and immature.

Depressed one here! Well, not now, I have my meds, they keep me alive and away from self-harm! "Looks intensively to his pills" I hate you so much, st*pid pills...
I think the pills have given to the creative part of my brain a license to take vacations more often than not. I remember that before I was able to make a ton of connections in my stories and came out with good situations for my characters, but now everything tastes bland and generic, I can't (at least in Spanish) have any dialog that feels organic (English is easier for some reason). This is a feeling that is... despair-inducing. I hope I don't have these pills for the rest of my life, I hope they take them away soon, one can dream ;w; I want to be able to writhe like before again.
Hope you are doing great by the way.

Can I ask? What is your story about? What kind of stories do you make? I do Sci-fi, at least for tapas, I have other projects in my native language.

Here it is:

Same here, there is not creative writing in Argentina (I think there is, but it's in the country capital and I'm not there). I was hoping that Modern Literature would help me in my craft, but it was naught and I drop that career. I then realize my passion for history and I started studying it. I'm currently writing a test about the ancient Incas and the conquest of Peru, it's a pretty awesome subject, there is a lot of backstabbing of the conquerors turning on each other for gold and silver.
What about you? What are you reading for English Literature? We don't have that career here, we have a mix of everything in the curriculum of modern letters.

That's okey! I too took a looooong break from my studies for... a myriad of reasons relating my mental health. Shakespeare must be an awesome subject, his plays were groundbraking for what little I know about English Literature. Can you tell me something you remember? I'm a voracious schoolar, I love every bit of knowledge I can put my hands on

Haha! Well it seems he succeded, we are still reading about his loved one to this day and he is ageless to our imagination. I will cherish this new knowledge. I'm courious about that Shakespeare was more than one person, that sounds intriguing. What are you reading now? I'm with the history of Peru, but I'm thinking in picking something of Tolkien (I have the library from him, but I didn't read his works appart for the Hobbit and TLOTR)