Anybody else here who is depressed?

[UrMom]

This is so real * cries in veteran *

Singlehandedly the most terrifying experience in existence.

At least if you have test and social anxiety. Interestingly enough the base Psychologist I was seeing for my board interview never experienced one before because she was a civilian, so during my final board I requested they let her shadow it to see what one was like, and her being there helped me be not freaked out enough to pass. Also it felt like I was taking a hit for the good of furthering someone's education, which also helped in some odd way.

[jensrichard77]

Maybe we should show our art here, which was created during such crises. That would interest me.

Sorry. I do not have that kind of material to share

[kmlangleyauthor]

That’s really cool that they let her shadow you! That definitely would have made me feel better, too (kind of having someone “on your side” the whole time). Thankfully I didn’t have to take too many boards (but the ones I did were hell) but my hubby had a job that he had monthly(?) boards and he got to the point that they don’t even bother him anymore (which just blows my mind LOL). I had more watch standing anxiety that flared up than anything - I was just in weird situations the whole time where I didn’t ever feel like I had enough training for the situations I was in and it was so bad all the time

[gmaximin]

7, they might go to the same school if you were in SH (they made a eurocampus backed by both countries in Yangpu).
As for showing art, mine are really personal, in a sense that emotions are raw, so only me understand them. I adapted panels from one into “waste vs scrap” episode for Effy.

I have lost the ability to see the world through a filter.

I know the feeling... but I didn’t put that on the account of depression, but of the professional environment... but maybe there’s a link.

my brain is newer shutting down

I’m glad meds helped you out. I had some decades ago, and I didn’t like it. So now I force down time on myself (because when I don’t my body does). Traveling is the best, being stuck in a bus/train/plane for hours with nothing to do but listen music looking outside, and no guilt about it... it always brings perspective and quiet things down.

[Esoj]

Depressed one here! Well, not now, I have my meds, they keep me alive and away from self-harm! "Looks intensively to his pills" I hate you so much, st*pid pills...
I think the pills have given to the creative part of my brain a license to take vacations more often than not. I remember that before I was able to make a ton of connections in my stories and came out with good situations for my characters, but now everything tastes bland and generic, I can't (at least in Spanish) have any dialog that feels organic (English is easier for some reason). This is a feeling that is... despair-inducing. I hope I don't have these pills for the rest of my life, I hope they take them away soon, one can dream ;w; I want to be able to writhe like before again.
Hope you are doing great by the way.

[Wocalich]

Thanks, I managed to write a new chapter for one of my stories so that's great. I hope you're doing well as well.

[Esoj]

Can I ask? What is your story about? What kind of stories do you make? I do Sci-fi, at least for tapas, I have other projects in my native language.

[Wocalich]

It's werewolf isekai. Just something simple to get the creative juices flowing before I return to Psetha, my main project.

[mbindhammer]

I do Sci-Fi as well. I am actually a scientist by profession, have done research on artificial intelligence for years.

The mask on the left side of the drawing really exists. It is the face of one of my robots, which I developed and programmed.

[Esoj]

That sounds awesome! I will give a look to your series when I have time (currently occupied with uni stuff)

[Wocalich]

I'd really appreciate that. Uni...I need to go back to it as well, this October

[mbindhammer]

Here it is:

[Esoj]

What are you studying? I'm going for the title of Professor in History and, after that, the Degree in history, specialty of my thesis, ancient Mesopotamian or medieval history.

@mbindhammer that's an awesome robot!

[Wocalich]

I'm studying English Literature. I would study creative writing but there's none in Turkey

[Esoj]

Same here, there is not creative writing in Argentina (I think there is, but it's in the country capital and I'm not there). I was hoping that Modern Literature would help me in my craft, but it was naught and I drop that career. I then realize my passion for history and I started studying it. I'm currently writing a test about the ancient Incas and the conquest of Peru, it's a pretty awesome subject, there is a lot of backstabbing of the conquerors turning on each other for gold and silver.
What about you? What are you reading for English Literature? We don't have that career here, we have a mix of everything in the curriculum of modern letters.

[Wocalich]

Mostly Shakespeare. I don't remember much since I took a long break haha

[Esoj]

That's okey! I too took a looooong break from my studies for... a myriad of reasons relating my mental health. Shakespeare must be an awesome subject, his plays were groundbraking for what little I know about English Literature. Can you tell me something you remember? I'm a voracious schoolar, I love every bit of knowledge I can put my hands on

[Wocalich]

Well, let's see. Shakespeare is a mystery to this day, some people even say that Shakespeare was more than one person.
I love his poem where he likens his loved one to a perfect, endless summer day and ends the poem by saying you're perfect because I made you ageless by writing about you. It's so cheeky that I love it haha

[Esoj]

Haha! Well it seems he succeded, we are still reading about his loved one to this day and he is ageless to our imagination. I will cherish this new knowledge. I'm courious about that Shakespeare was more than one person, that sounds intriguing. What are you reading now? I'm with the history of Peru, but I'm thinking in picking something of Tolkien (I have the library from him, but I didn't read his works appart for the Hobbit and TLOTR)

[Wocalich]

Right now? I'm reading Trapped by the Mafia by @domisotto