Oh hell no - I have a hard enough time getting people interested in my work - I'd likely be loathed. Its really no different how people have reacted to me my whole life just on a much larger scale. Hell my usual social media presence is about as warm and inviting as a rusted combine harvester being torn apart in a blizzard.
I'm really not good at dealing with people or taking compliments well or knowing what to say in any given situation. I mean I've been alone my entire life and there are good reasons for it some of which are my own fault some are a result of my disability.
My personality like digging bare handed through a mixture of razorwire and rock salt. I cant really fault anyone who says they loathe me on a visceral level.
There is something deeply DEEPLY wrong with how I process interacting with others. For whatever reason I cant seem to disguise or obfuscate this fact for very long no matter how hard I train. I've been called... unnerving before. At my old job people were SCARED of me and I really tried my hardest to be sweet.
On the one hand I'm still about as lonely as a person can be without completely losing their sanity. On the other I'm through trying to belong places I'm clearly not fitting in.
Can you imagine someone with all my issues an emotional hangups thrust into that situation? I would not begrudge anyone wanting to see that trainwreck. hell if I wasn't the one having the meltdown I'd wanna watch it too.
The more I think about it the more I'd welcome it - at least its very likely someone would get some enjoyment out of my misery and... its oddly comforting.
