Ever very suspicious that you might be the MC of a story that hasn't been released yet? (shamelessly brag)

[DualDragons]

I mean everyone is the main character of their own story, and to others we're just well... people! I don't think I'm anything special in that regard, just living out my story. Hopefully for many years to come

[ArtGremlin]

I got that protagonist luck without anything bad happening to me yet. Probably about to find out magic is real and my whole family dies or something.

[Leyelle]

You didn't offend me, it's just a note

[Leyelle]

Honestly living any length of time without something bad happening to you means you are definitely a protagonist

[lignorice]

Glad to hear that. I am sometimes afraid offending someone without knowing. Been told that a few times when I don't know what did I do, then they said they hinted it but I take it as a note so I get anxious and can't really differ which one is 'I'm telling you just for notes' or hinting 'I'm actually get offended'. This is a problem I do realize and I am in progress to improve.

Back to topic, now I am wondering if anyone would want a story about an anxious person. A roller coaster of me with talking much yet feel anxious after that.

If me reading my story I'd close the book for sure 🤣 I'd say 'What the hell did I write'

[Stargazer31]

I can scuba dive, and I've flown a plane, travelled the worl and been on archaeological digs.
Now, where's my whip and fedora?

[Leyelle]

Honestly, I would read and have read, a story about a perosn with anxiety, it was called "OCDaniel," and anxiety is one of the primary themes in "Damsel in the Red Dress" as well. Depression, anxiety, mental breakdowns and inability to function is social settings, all of that.

[Leyelle]

Ohhh true...don't touch the arch of the covenant!

[NickRowler]

I don’t think my life is interesting enough to warrant me being the main character of a story. Maybe there are interesting aspects but I would rather make characters inspired by those things instead of using myself.

I am also really do not want people to fetishize me or my struggles with being trans. And that is also why I don’t put that in any of my bios.

[Leyelle]

Well you don't have to make a story about it, I was just talking about when you look at it from your own perspective, does it ever make you FEEL like you're the MC of a narrative. And definitely don't share any information you're not comfortable with, people will act weird about anything

[NickRowler]

Everyone is the MC of their own life. I do think some people forget that and avoid taking care of themselves. But you also have to be empathetic to others because they are trying to navigate their own lives.

But when it comes to story telling…no, I do not think everyone’s life would make an interesting narrative to read or watch. Heck, even if something interesting happens in your life, it’s a small fraction. Usually most days are just mundane.

[lignorice]

Yes, I can totally see it in your story. It begins with anxiety for sure. I read a bit and your story is one that I want to read in one go. I am sure I'm going to have deep contemplation after reading, so I have save it for later when I have much free time on hand.

Thank you for saying that you'd read, because I wouldn't read mine. I might tell pieces and bits, but not creating it into novel or such.

I do have things that actually can be applied in stories like I told in few previous replies, but I have mixed feelings when people are going to read it. Yet, I believe that most stories, although labeled as fiction, might have bits from the author's real life. Just hits different when it is stated 'about me' and not 'about my children' a.k.a my characters.

[Leyelle]

I agree, especially with traumatic experiences, I have to admit (TW///sexual abuse) that when I was younger I once wrote a 100% true essay about my experience with sexual abuse but labeled it fiction so that no one would know or ask me about it, when I wrote Damsel in the Red Dress, some of these feelings were channeled into Alicia's experience (specifically in the chapter 'Lurid'), (don't worry the story is extremely mild in this respect, and what she went though was not very extreme), but though it still made me sad, it doesn't hurt much anymore, so I feel that I can safely talk about it, and write it into my stories without the panic I felt some years back

Says this and then begins to panic/overthink and debate deleting this comment. (Somebody just tell me if it makes you too uncomfortable)

[lignorice]

You're really strong. You've survived through it if it's no longer hurt you to the point you can write it without triggering any panic. It is, in my opinion, the highest degree of surviving a trauma.

Being sad when reminisce it is what I am experiencing too. I have some bad things I may be able to laugh or even pass it as a joke for now, but yes, it still make me sad deep inside. Even just a bit, the sadness is still lingers when I laugh and replied "Yeah, dunno how a fool I am to actually experience that" when someone talks to me about the moments.

I'm fine with your post. So we do have the 'say and get anxious afterwards' pattern! Even I type and delete a few times in this reply lol

[Leyelle]

Yess, honestly my fear is more making other people uncomfortable than just expressing what I went through myself at this point. When I was younger I was worried what would happen to me if people found out, but that experience has already happened and been so excruciating that just mentioning it to other people in general is no longer as much of a concern

[lignorice]

We're in same phase then. I tried to not overthink how others would think with what I said. Express what needs to be expressed yet being considerate enough. Finding balance is quite hard for me.

There's this saying (idk where I read it but it has been inspiring me to not overthink that much):

"Worrying makes you suffer twice."

While my version added: "and once for nothing if it did not happen in the end."

This kinda works for me for small things.