Executive function

[rachurch95]

I do just wanna like... Talk, about my executive function a bit. It's something that is common with ADHD, and its just... you Want to do something, you know you want to do something, but your brain won't let your body do it.

It sucks. It's almost debilitating tbh. cause you will be sitting there, going "i need to do the thing' but you just.. won't. Cause your body just won't let you. and it'll make you feel so bad. Cause like.

I follow so many amazingly written stories and comics, and I wanna show I'm seeing you, show I love your work, and believe me, I DO. everyone I follow (over 200) has some amazing work!

I just...

Can't do anything.
and it sucks.

and i can't apologize enough.

[Scarlet_Cryptid]

Literally everyone in my household but me has ADHD, so I hear you-- I've seen how hard it's been for all of them.

hug

No judgment here.

[rachurch95]

;w; thanks friend

like i know people are probably tired of me just popping in their notifs sometimes just to go ' sorry i'm being on liking and commenting!'

but there's also that extra bit of 'if you don't apologize people will think you're purposefully ignoring them and being a jerk'

ahhh
mental health is fun lol

[Toastbuster]

As someone who has struggled with adhd for 20ish years I FEEL YOU. And honestly, kudos to you for trying to keep up and engage with that many stories, because I literally couldn’t do that no matter how good they were lol! But I don’t think you should feel obligated to comment on everything. A simple like is enough to show that you’re paying attention. People love and appreciate comments, sure, but reading is supposed to be fun for you! Don’t stress yourself out by thinking you have to comment on every single update. Most sane people will know you’re not being a jerk if you just want to enjoy a few chapters without saying anything

[rachurch95]

you are so nice ;w;

i mean
you're right, it just stinks i can't keep the promise to myself to do it
but now i'm just gonna make sure i like the stuff
comment when i can : D

[sorible]

I felt that. It's even worse when people around you will nag for "not trying". I know I can do it, and I'm really trying, but at the same time, I just can't do anything.

[rachurch95]

right???

it stinks!

[Scarlet_Cryptid]

To all my beloved ADHD folks (including my best friend and my husband): You are trying so hard and at least this one NT person sees you. You are not lazy.

Laziness is not supposed to be exhausting and stressful.

Please take care of yourselves. <3

[nkapit]

Having apparently been born dual classing in ADD and autism, I can strongly relate to this. I’m trying to learn to treat myself the way I would want others to be treated, with self-compassion.

[dominioncomix]

Hey, don't beat yourself up, it's not like you're doing it on purpose. You just drew the short straw when it comes to mental health.
The good thing is most mental conditions can be managed effectively with the proper coping mechanisms, a healthy lifestyle and medication if needed (not mandatory, i used to be on lots of medications when i could afford treatment but i've been managing pretty well without it nowadays!)
I'd suggest talking to other people with ADHD or depression who manage to overcome their executive dysfunction, both for the good advice and for the sense of not being alone in this, that can be quite valuable.
Keep your chin up!

[Kaydreamer]

I know that feeling! Over-committing, then feeling guilty because you over-committed, and how the ADHD becomes almost like a physical disability with how utterly it can prevent you from getting up and doing the thing you want to do. To me, it feels like a task is a wet bar of soap, and my brain is slippery wet fingers which just can't grip onto it, no matter how much I want it to.

But you shouldn't feel guilty for not being able to keep up with a library of 200 titles! That's so many! I don't follow nearly that amount, and I don't comment all the time either. No reasonably creator is going to get salty because they expect you to engage. Engagement from individual readers will ebb and flow, that's totally normal.

[rachurch95]

@Kaydreamer
@dominioncomix

it can be hard to not too tbh

honestly it was still kinda bad even when i was on meds ahaha ;;

but hey
i think i'm gonna find a good balance yes yes!!!