Have you ever hated yourself/your work?

[esquarecomics]

I think a lot of people feel this way. I think that feeling has always held me back from doing more. That's why some of my first, longest-running series are coming out now, rather than, say, 2020 or 2018, or 2016. I think over time, and probably in spite of my negative feeling towards my art, I stopped caring about being good in a sense. Like I always care about quality and I'm insecure in my work and actively hate everything about it, but I'm not going to wait for my art to "be professional" because, at the end of the day, my abilities will never truly reach my expectations or the type of perfection that I seek. I'd rather people see and process the work that I could make to the best of my ability than wait years at a time for my work to look as good as some of my favorite artists. If I don't try, something, anything, then it's more of a failure than having my work be seen and hated by everyone in my opinion.

[GamerPrincessXI]

I hated my story Nova and Max...even though I heavily promoted it on Tapas...I somehow always add the characters somewhere in my other stories...for lulz...People will always not appreciate their own work but someone out there will ️ it. My story wasn't even scripted I just winged it. Lol.

[DiegoPalacios]

I hate this constant reassurence seeking, it's caused my life as a whole to stagnate more or less it feels.

Sorry if i come off as blunt, but i think we need to focus on the practical aspects on solving this.

Alright, you figured the problem you need to solve.

If you are insecure about your art, practice to get better. You have improved a lot over the years, and i gain nothing by complimenting you. You are not my boss

If you are insecure about your writing, practice your storytelling. How do you practice that?, the answer is surprisingly simple, but not easy. Is the same as art. Learn the rules like a pro to break them like an artist.

If you are insecure about you as a person work on yourself. Do something that is good for you and you enjoy, be it a hobby, excercising, learning something new, self care or whatever as long as it's good for you in a way.

The solution to self doubt is an answer. You wanna know if your art will be good?, make some art. You wanna know if your story will be good?, make a story, you wanna know if this project will succeed?, make it a reality!.

Don't make me yell "JUST DO IT"......but you get my point.

If i didn't think you could do it i wouldn't have spent my time writing this reply.

[WickedSuitProduction]

I hate myself very much. Mostly cause I’ve let down or hurt people before, and it weighs on me terribly. But I’m always trying to do better, and sometimes, writing helps me channel that into something positive and even work out some of it.

[crimson_mystery_cake]

yes i have lmaoooooo

[Stargazer31]

Quite a lot, actually. Some days I love my art, some days I hate everything about it

[TheLemmaLlama]

Ye from what I've seen, not many people have talked about art-themed OCD or made resources about it A few personal experiences here and there, but not much in the way of actionable advice ...

Maybe if you post what you said here in some OCD support communities, some other people who have dealt with the same thing can see it and have something useful to say? There are also resources on reassurance-seeking in general which can be applied no matter what your theme is. Hope some part of this can be of use to you :]

[aqua03]

Thank you so much. I'll definitely look into those when I have the time.

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