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Dec 2019

Somewhere in this thread you mentioned that you don't read any comics. That's going to be your biggest failing--if you want to get better at creation, you need to consume it. You become a better writer, a better artist, by looking at other works and seeing how they do things and how they impact you. All of us are an amalgamation of our inspirations, so limiting your pool is only going to hurt you.

There are no shortcuts, but I do think you can ease off the pressure on yourself. Find techniques that make your page production faster, make compromises on quality and detail. Take it down from 2 patreon drawings to 1 a week. Hell, you could probably taper that off to 1 exclusive a MONTH. Most of them are only paying you $1 a month since you have no tiers, so why break your back putting out an excessive amount of extra content? They're following you because they like your work, and 90% of them aren't going to bat an eye if you ease off the exclusives to have more time to yourself or to improve your craft. You need a better work life balance and throwing yourself into more work isn't the solution.

Okay people, I'm going to say it: I'm now the biggest darthmongoose fan. And it's not just my soft spot for straight-talking lesbians (pun intended). Preach!

I'm not even sure if the audience even exists.
This makes things even worse, because it means that no matter what I do, I'm screwed.
The only place where I've found any audience is here on Tapas, and to some degree, Webtoons. And these places are not my audience either, so basically, I may not have an audience at all.

However, my best is not good enough to compete with the extremely talented and skilled creators that are at the top of the food chain. Not even close.

Can you elaborate on what you mean by this?

the remainder of the week is spent doing 2 exclusive drawings for my Patreon, and I barely make it. I literally have no spare time to put any more work into this.

What kind of drawings?

I feel like 15 hours is a lot of time to spend on one page. I don't know how much time other people spend, but I do about 4 hours / page. I have a looser, sketchier style than your's and less detailed pages.

Looking at your pages, your art is very smooth and clean. It's clear you took a lot of time to get it that way. But maybe if it's burning you out you don't need to do so much? Maybe look for ways to take less time on a page instead of ways to improve your art. I think you could get 90% of the polish with like 60% of the work

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These guys are the real deal, professional comic artists and if you listen they will be more than happy to get you thinking about the medium in ways you probably never considered before. You NEED to be okay with criticism though. These guys are good. They definitely know better than you or I. :slight_smile: So if you're serious, that's a great resource. You can take a look at my comic, Runner and how it changes throughout it's run of 28 pages throughout 2019 and you can see the amount that I grew and it was in no small part because of their help

I second this. His comic does heavily come off as "sexy lesbians written by a man" and I don't think it appeals to a lot of people on this site. I also have a feeling most readers on webcomic sites are female.

Agree that he might have better luck promoting on Reddit. Or Twitter, maybe? Or DeviantArt? The comic reminds me a bit of that old Hipstergirl and Gamergirl comic I used to see floating around. I wonder how that one got popular?

In the words of John McClane, "Welcome to the party pal!"

I'm one of your subscribers who's been following you for awhile now. I can speak on the fact that it's the craftsmanship of your strip that keeps me coming back. I enjoy the character relationships and some of the gags but it's the QUALITY of your work that's the draw.

Much like my fandom of R. Crumb, I don't necessarily share your passions and kinks. I'm a big fan of your art and storytelling.

The author, Jagodibuja, has his own site, presence in a lot of social media platforms and posts both in Spanish and English. But I think his biggest trick is doing a lotsa sexy fanart. For each strip of his original work, there's like two or three fanarts. He's been working for years on end, too :thinking:

I kinda feel like there's a lot of circumstance at work here, so I'm a bit confused.

What exactly are you frustrated with? And why do you need to get better? What's your intent or goal here? Cause once you know the end game you can plan and make the appropriate changes to get there. Though it might be the case where you have to make some sacrifices to get there (especially if time is the biggest issue).

Honestly, I don't think its "talent" or the like, and that kind of thinking is probably preventing you from believing in yourself and building up confidence. Like you're stuck in some trap and the more you struggle the more you're making it worse for yourself. You need to create a more optimistic mindset for yourself, if for any reason because it will help you work better. A combination of stress, worries, anxieties, pessimism, etc. don't really make for good decision making and can often lead to you digging yourself into a deeper hole.

As for the genre, yeah tapas might not be the best platform, but I don't think its that niche really. Probably there's some changes you can make to the story and the art, but I think there's potential for a growing audience. Especially if you added more fluff and lewd stuff. Not everyone has to like your comic, but obviously you do have an audience.

I'm all for the "git gud" approach don't get me wrong, but that alone is too forceful. Yes, improve the art and writing, but also try to have a strategy and know where you can work smarter not harder.

Are you going to share your specific passions and kinks? Or are you just teasing us with the mystery?

It means I'm working my arse off and I can't get anywhere,

Unfortunately I've tried and failed. Whenever I try to make my life easier, I lose tons of readers. I painted myself into a corner that I can't get out of.

And I think here comes the problem. The word lesbian hasn't even been uttered in the comic itself and it's not even the focus, but it keeps coming up, so clearly that's what people see.
Unfortunately, people who want to see that, will probably be disappointed.
I've tried Twitter, Deviantart,Tumblr, other platforms like Comicfury and The Duck, but no one cares. Tapas and Webtoons are the only place where I've found an audience (kind of), which is worrying because it could mean that there's no actual platform for my work.

I know what's wrong with my work, the problem is I have no time to get better as I'm already running on fumes.

That's my biggest worry. I'm afraid that the comic has no non-creator appeal, which would explain why I lose tons of readers when I sacrifice the quality for lighter workloads.

I didn't even know he actually did comics as all I saw was a shitload of fan art to begin with.
Unfortunately I detest doing fanart, which is to my detriment as I could probably get a lot more attention that way. But frankly, I'd rather stick a fork in my eyeball than do fanart.

Unfortunately, a combination of chronic depression and anxiety makes the whole optimism thing pretty hard.
Also, I've painted myself into a corner. I'm already working as efficiently as my skill level would allow me, If I sacrifice quality, I start losing readers. This leaves me with no time for anything and I'm forever rushing to get things finished.
So, I'm constantly overworked and tired just to stay above water, which doesn't help.

I could perhaps put more lewd and fluff into it, I guess. I mean, since the final product does not reflect the amount of work I've put into the character interactions and evolving relationships, I might as well bring them in by putting more of that in it.

All that sounds like you're trying hard to find a reason why you consider yourself and your work a failure, despite none are. Because, like many of us, you chained part of your self-confidence to the metrics of the sites you're in.

May this call for help be more "my depression is taking over the work I love, please, grab your nearest weapon and help me fight it back"?

We are not on your head, the only thing I can say is to take care of that depression, whatever way works for you (therapist, medication, a less slaver schedule...), because that exhaustion of yours is clearly a body call for help, to take more care for yourself before keep working on anything else.

First health, Carlos, then everything else will roll at its rythm.

Cheers :two_hearts:

Well, I consider the constant loss of readers and lack of positive feedback whenever the comic is discussed outside my presence a failure.

I'm glad this is the only part you can argue about my reply.

This is my last message, you're feeding your inner demons with our responses, dude.

It's your decision to take or not the advices or what to do with your work. Yours, not of your depression, she's not the boss here, you are.

Sorry, but right now I’m in panic mode and I’m realising I may be more screwed than I initially suspected.
My apologies.

Okay okay, deep breaths, buddy, you're not screwed. You've had a little stumble and it's thrown you off-balance. I've seen comic artists come back from way worse than this. Your situation is really not all that bad. Objectively the problem is:

You have made a comic which has excellent art and solid gag writing, which has 13,000 bookmarks (incredible, that's a bigger number of bookmarks than the average per-issue readership on most published comics!), but has hit a point where it can't expand further easily and fails to generate the kind of buzz you need to really push your career to the next level because it has already filled its small niche and isn't a wider appeal kind of comic.

You are a hermit crab who has survived long enough and been successful enough to outgrow its shell. You have made a comic that does what it does very well, it's just that the type of comic you've made would have been a hit in the 00s, but the audience for webcomics is different now.

This is not a horrible situation! What, did you just spend $10,000 on a huge print run of five thousand books? Did you flounce out of your day job and tell every employer in the country you'll never work for them because you're a hot-shot comic artist? Did you stinkbomb the Onipress offices? If no, then there's really no barrier here.

Your options:
- Start a new comic. Yeah, you can. It worked for John Allison, who moved from Bobbins to Scary-Go-Round to Bad Machinery and Giant Days, it worked for David Willis going from It's Walky! to Shortpacked to Dumbing of Age, so there's no reason you can't make a new comic that's more in line with the tastes of the contemporary audience without the baggage of your long page count, and even bring along some of your fave characters from the comic you have and put them in a new context. You'll probably get faster growth from fans moving over from your old comic to help visibility, so you should build up visibility quickly.
- Dig in with the comic you have and merchandise the crap out of your audience. Like, dude, your comic is like an early 00s sexy gag comic, do you know what your core audience is? Men in their 30s and 40s, the biggest spenders in comics merch. I've seen it bandied around that if you have a core base of 2000 really hardcore fans, you can scrape a living off a webcomic. You could sell posters, books....body pillows.... :neutral_face: (I'm not necessarily saying I'd approve, but as a business decision it makes complete sense given the genre of the comic).
- Start pitching to publishers and showing your portfolio at events. Your work is more than good enough, why not give Dark Horse, Oni Press or even Marvel a shot?
- Have your comic as a thing you do for fun on the side and do a different job to pay rent. There's zero shame in this and it doesn't make you a failure. Being pro full time for like... nearly everyone I know on the scene means drawing crappy comics about other people's IP. A lot of my friends who wanted to draw the comic they care about started doing a different job and having their dream comic be a side hustle or even a hobby (self included, actually).

You have plenty of options, and whether you drop it or continue, you have a very successful webcomic under your belt that you should treat like an asset, not a failure. You could go to any publisher and say "I have kept regular updates for five years on a webcomic with over 13,000 readers, and now I want to take my career to the next level" and they'd be really impressed.

Okay, okay. I’m taking deep breaths.
You’re right. I should be targeting the 30/40 market.
I should also consider some merchandise.
I don’t feel particularly comfortable with making body pillows, but they’d probably sell quite well. It would also increase the comic’s profile.

To be honest Though, I don’t think I’d like to get into publishing. I have a mortgage to pay and need financial stability, so my office job will be my main income in the foreseeable future. It also kind of terrifies me!
But you’re right. I should play more into that Middle aged men market as it’s probably something they’d be looking for.

Okay, this at least gives me a basis for some sort of strategy. Now, I just need to get to work on it.

Thank you so much. You‘ve really helped me with something I’ve been struggling for years and was aggravating my depression.
Now, at least I have some sort of road map I can work with.
Wish me luck!

However, my best is not good enough to compete with the extremely talented and skilled creators that are at the top of the food chain. Not even close.

It means I'm working my arse off and I can't get anywhere

It sounds like the destination you are trying to reach is amongst other highly skilled artists. Let's keep this in mind.

the remainder of the week is spent doing 2 exclusive drawings for my Patreon, and I barely make it. I literally have no spare time to put any more work into this.

So it looks like you have an opportunity with 2 drawings per week in which you are getting paid. Have you considered using these 2 drawings for weekly innovations.

So, Instead of just churning out what you practice all day long (which you implied is limited skillwise), use your 2 patreon drawings to incorporate techniques from an artist or 2 you considered extremely talented and skilled. Ideally, something you are bad at or inexperienced at. (Shading, background, color theory etc). Once you get comfortable, you can start leveraging new skills in your comic and continue the cycle while broadcasting new skills.

It sounds like you have a specific goal and plenty of opportunity, you just need to prioritise your efforts and resources so growth is a central part of productivity.