This gives us lots of context.
You are going through a rough time and you are not staring at the wall because you want to.
In a sense, it is a bad sitiation to be in specially since you didn't choose to be in it.
You are doing well by trying to involve yourself in archery and by looking forward to the future.
Do stay positive and while we may not be able to help solve the situation completely. I hope we can give you small comfort be it by giving you advice, talking to you, or simply by making your day slightly better.
Even though we may be strangers, do know I wish you the best. 🫂
Just know that you are not alone and we are somehow here for you if you need us. 