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Oct 2019

I always like to say that I draw/write because I love it because it's my passion. But whenever I posted my art or writing online it was always about the numbers: the numbers of likes, the numbers of followers, the numbers of subscribers. If I posted something and it didn't do well it always irritated me. Slowly, I started to become obsessed about it. I began comparing myself to others. If an art didn't do well then I deemed it as bad. I began to draw and write because it was popular.
It was not fun.
Writing and drawing weren't about writing and drawing anymore.
It was about the numbers.
It was about likes.
It was about followers.
...I started to forget.
But one day, I decided that I want to start a fan project. It's an Undertale AU. It's dumb and a bit embarrassing and I know well that it's not going to give me much "exposure" and followers since it has been years since Undertale was released. But I don't care. I did it anyway because I want to. Because I want to show my appreciation for this game. And when I worked on it, I rediscovered that feeling. The feeling of excitement and happiness. That was the first time in a while when I couldn't wait to open my laptop and draw and write. It's not about the followers. It's not about likes.
It's about sharing the things that I love with others.
It's about sharing the things that I want to say to the world.
And I started to ask. What the hell had I been doing? When did I forget? When did I start to lose sight of what is important?
So I stopped.
I stopped looking at the numbers.
I stopped looking at the number of followers that I gain.
I stopped looking at the likes that I get.
Because it's not about those.
Because in the end, those are just numbers.
Why should I let numbers affect how I feel?
It should be about passion.
It should be about love.
It should be about happiness.

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I never write any haiku :cry_01: But I'll try. :smug_01:

Forget the numbers
Remember what's important
It is happiness

What if you posted your work and you did get numbers, likes and followers?

What if you are passionate about your work and you love when people love it and that makes you happy?

Nothing wrong with getting likes and followers. The problem is when we start to obsess on gaining followers and only focusing on the numbers.

I like that. By the way, have you seen this thread?

Too many shoulds here.
When there are too many shoulds,
writing wanes and dies.

I don't mean to be a snark, lol. But some of the best advice I ever got was "put the damn pen down and go have an adventure. Then when you come back inside you have something worth writing about. Something that's actually yours, not just a different take on somebody else's adventure."

I feel like that's the kind of quote that sounds like really good advice but in reality only applies to a very specific group of people.

Take me, for instance. I write mostly high-stakes fantasy and sci-fi, so no mundane 'adventure' I might go on (even if I had money) would come anywhere close to the stuff I write about.

And my personality simply isn't well-suited to romantic/social adventures. I just...don't do things. I don't make jokes, I don't have fun with others, I don't do any of the things that you'd actually want to read about a character doing. Mostly all I do is think. And I can do that at home. WITH my pen in my hand.