Oof for me right now it's a character I only just got to mention in my last update for The Fake Saintess Doesn't want to Save the World (Caswallon, he's the younger brother of one of my fave supporting characters the genius Princess Rhiannon), except he's already dead 
I'm really looking forward to writing him because he's an excellent foil to my more angsty main characters; he's super bright and caring but also a huge brat. So he's like a breath of fresh air in a way, and he's really important to multiple other character's development and perspectives. BUT everything I'll get to write about him will all be in flashbacks and memories, which I know will make me incredibly sad every time because, as I mentioned, he is dead.
what's kind of wild is that it feels super unfair to me even though this is a story I'm writing? like at times I want to write an alternate story where everyone can just be happy even though I know I never will because that won't be 'real'. it's all pretty ridiculous when I think about it 
the novel he's from, latest chapter: