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Considering there's so much fanfic out there where people are just using the character tropes and the easy out for visual description, there's nothing to be ashamed of in using it as a jumping off point. Or just filing off the serial numbers. I may have a fic I'm planning on doing this with...

As for my current comic, Damngelic started as a fancomic that stemmed from some Halloween fanart. Then the plot started piling up, and I became more interested in the story and than the fanservice. Dropped it for a while, and since I was still interested in the story and wanted to change some of the opening elements and characters and character interaction, I started it over as its own thing.

I'm just impressed you started writing that early. I'm pretty sure I was still spending most of my time gaming as opposed to doing anything actually productive or creative back then. :sweat_smile:

To be fair, they were the type of ocs that just exist for me to mess around with. It's really only now, 4 years later, that I really thought of this as a "Story"

I always feel weird in these threads, because peeps like have this one book they write, and I have eight... and counting.

My first novel was a love letter to an old video game that had its sequel canceled.

The rest of them came from just wanting to write about having adventures and fooling around in settings that go beyond standard Western Fantasy.

Really, I just want to write space operas for shank and giggles, but almost nobody comes to the Internet to read about space ships and aliens, so I switched to fantasy, like everyone else.

Honestly, I am tired and want to read adventures, and I vaguely remember a lot of obscure stuff from history, so I string it together in plots that sound like fun to me with characters like nobody else writes any more.

That’s all.

My work came from multiple assets from my younger life. Where i screwed up lost people and thing and where i've wanted to kill myself on multiple occasions and such.

My original comic was going to be a character who's suicidal and would try to kill himself but never able to do so based on life's inconveniences. I felt that it was too loose and generic of an idea that's been done before time and time again and so I decided to do something much more effort driven as a whole.

Of coure my efforts proved to be in vain due to no one giving a shit about me and my creations whatsoever, so I have nothing to show that would be interesting at all and I just end up disappointing everyone and hide back into my shell of self-pity.

That's bipolar depression in a nutshell, and I know i'll never crawl out of it any time soon.

All my series came from a desire to make something.

I got the idea for Bounty Turn after watching Hunter X Hunter and I wanted to make a sci-fi series based on bounty hunters.

Uber Upgrades came from a custom game mode of the same name from Team Fortress 2 and other shounen series I enjoyed.

and Jervis T Booker is a continuation of a DND campaign I played in, Jervis was not my character in that but he had a backstory that I wanted to make a series about.

For what it's worth, I personally love your work. And I understand wanting to do things beyond just what everyone else wants you to do. That's part of why I decided to leave the site I was originally on. It felt like the more and more I was writing, the further and further away I was getting from my original vision.

Also, you're not alone in the multiple writings department. I've lost count of how many projects I've started and "put in the freezer" so to speak.

From one bipolar person to another, please take a step back from the internet. Do whatever you need to in terms of healthy self care. Relax as best you can. I understand the problems of equating your self worth to your work, but doing so is incredibly damaging, both to yourself and to your work. It sounds like you need to take some time to evaluate yourself and determine whether or not your artistic goals are really what you want to do in the moment. Stepping away from your art and comic is okay. The internet will always be there when you feel more positive.

I myself took a step back for years. During this time, I found happiness in my art again and felt far less constrained by lacking in numbers of followers. Because most of the time, that's all they are, numbers. Instead, focus on the followers themselves. The one's who support you. Reach out to them, have fun with them.

But right now, tearing down yourself and others is just going to burn bridges that you will regret later. Seek help however you can and focus on your artistic mindset.

I've been working with my character and her universe for a little over 10 years now(man I'm old​:sob::sob:) so my inspirations are kind if dated. I was reading Grant Morrison's X-Men run at the time and fell in love with his handling of the Emma Frost character at the same time I was heavily watching alot of the television show Supernatural(which was finishing up it's 2nd season) and I just loved the episodic nature of that show and the 2 characters always moving from town to town. I don't think I consciously set out to mash these 2 influences up, but kinda had fun being a thieving bastard any way, :laughing:

Player backstories are how I got started with writing. So that one holds a special place in my heart. World of Warcraft Roleplay was where I got my start however. And I've been obsessively adding stories to everything ever since. :sweat_smile:

Heh, mine are all finished, edited a few times etc. I am not so much prolific as I am steadily persistent. I get into that book, and I can’t stop till I see the end scene. Then I am done and get obsessed about another setting, plotline and set of characters.

It probably comes from wanting to know what happens next and how it ends. Basically, one of the reasons why all my work save for one duology is standalone.

One hundred percent agree. You gain nothing by tearing yourself down like that. Nothing. And I'll say this also. No one ever made something and then exploded the day after. It simply doesn't work that way. It took years just for me to get a steady fan base on my old site. And even then, I was nowhere near the top artists. Not by a long shot. I was still way way way down in the mid card.

Not only that, but I dealt with non-stop criticism, trolls, and people dogging my work simply because they didn't like what I was doing with the material. It's a process. It really is. And the fact that I'm now starting over from the very beginning scares the hell out of me, I'll readily admit that. Because that site represented years of work.

But it's like my Dad says. Nothing ever gets done if you let negativity and self-doubt rule your life.

I'll be honest, a lot of my OCs personality was loosely inspired by Dean Winchester. :joy: He's certainly not a carbon copy. But I love that gruff, emotionally unavailable yet still lovable personality of his. He can be serious and broody one minute and a hilarious comedian the next. I try to emulate that with my OC.

Hey, I'm sorry you're feeling like this right now, but I've replied this same advice to another thread and it seems like you didn't see it: you should take a break from the forums. Genuinely. Bringing this into a public forum where no one is a mental health professional is NOT healthy. You can't make a comic when you feel like total shit mentally.

I'm sorry to break this to you but making money on a comic with only 20 subs it's- not viable. As I've pointed out in your old thread, it takes a long time to build an audience, and even longer to reach a point where you can reasonably make money off of it. Please take a break, instead of replying to other threads with messages like this.

Dude, I'm gonna be real frank with you. You are challenging the wrong person here. I am mentally ill, very poor, don't know where I will be getting my money for rent next month, and I am switching between hypomania and depression daily. This is not the site to reach out for help. You will need to seek that from actual professionals. If you can't, do some research into coping mechanisms and reach out to friends.

I, for all my talent in art, have not made a single penny from it once. Did I complain? Yes. However, I grew up and understood my own responsibility in the situation. I got help for myself, and I researched methods of advertising my work. I am still learning. We all are. You complain here as if no one understands, but most of us are struggling. You are not unique in this struggle. This is not meant to be harsh, it's a helpful way of realizing that your problems do have solutions. Consider looking into some instead of only complaining. We are all struggling to get our artwork out there. Even artists with thousands of followers struggle to get money. And if money is your only goal, get a retail job. They suck, but that will give you stability.

So, I'm gonna leave this here and not continue to interact, because I can tell that you are more focused on self pitying than considering help. That's okay, but I recommend not doing it publicly because you will regret it. Instead, focus on yourself, stop tearing down others, and stop tearing down yourself. Because it does not help you, and it is only causing you to ruminate.

My current comic Baphomet Sheep V2 is like an alternative version of my previous comic Baphometh Sheep. I keep some of the character names, but it's a different universe, in the first comic it was about demons, angels, and magic, however, the V2 is pure sci-fi, set in space.

The similarities are that the main character is named the same and it's a GL.

:joy::joy: I hear you, I was so bad that I would catch myself in real life talking in Dean's voice saying how I thought stuff was Awesome. Or sonovab--- and many other his sayings. Lol