About myself, I'm just that odd fantasy lover who's out of place and has always been self aware of being different since as far back as I remember.
(Backstory below ïž )
Amungst my earliest memories was being a toddler in nursery on my first day looking at children and parents crying whilst I just looked forward to getting in that playhouse. I was perfectly content to play alone, enjoying the toys and costumes whilst other children followed instructions and chose to learn at a table (we had a choice), yet when I was taken aside and given an exam with no choice, it was easy, colours, numbers and shapes, I remember the teacher looking at me with an open mouth. I knew these because I had a small collection of childrens educational books that had exactly these things with simple stories and beautiful big pictures.
As years went by I still enjoyed picture books - now manga/comics, toys, drawings stories and designing all sorts, and was still fine alone, which just had others believe that I was a weirdo who's trying to be different and a snob who's not trying, these others not just being peers but family, as I'm a quiet person in a "family of bigmouths", these notions were far from the truth however, as I forever tried to be 'normal', yet couldn't read a regular book (I was in my early twenties when I completed my first novel), didn't have the courage to pursue artsy stuff as I'd gotten shot down in the past by the likes of teachers and advisors and pushed into 'office type work' (because I was boring?) and no matter how hard I tried, desperately trying to imitate, take on new interests and be generous and selfless to the point of always losing out, no amount of effort made me engaging to others.
At 19 and 20 I was finally diagnosed with dyslexia and ASD, which made so much sense in every conceivable way.
(Interest and ideas)
I always leaned towards fantasy and horror (though back in the day all horror had to contain the paranormal, now, it's just a slight preference). I liked odd imagery and 'out of the norm' scenarios. Today I like how everyone watching/reading is a fish out of water, simply accepting something different when they take on the story.
I loved Tim Burton films before even realizing they were Tim Burton films, these included the Batman films, I found the villains so appealing and Batman someone pleasant. Where as I would watch Disney and only like the villains, feel nothing for the goodies, yet I remember really disliking Aladin and Peter Pan, this hasn't changed, it's only gotten worst.
I've loved supernatural, horror, adventure manga, anime (pokemon and DBZ were my first and still amongst my favourites) and video games (RPG's and fighting) since childhood and that's unshaken.
I love real life stories of the paranormal, as horrible as they can get, I can't get enough of them (short stories I can easily read), I enjoy researching, that just leads you down a rabbit hole of hidden history and conspiracy, which is always interesting.
All these took a backseat a little for work, yet thos year things are different (as is the case for many of us).
Essentially, my ideas come from grand fantasy worlds I've seen, lost civilisations I've researched and monsters and madness that always come with them.
Feedback in the past has let me know the execution of my work is odd, I know the level of un-engagement has managed to translate, yet I'm embracing it, suppose the fantasy settings helps.
Ignore earlier post, I got this thread mixed up with another one I dipped into and had began replying to but got distracted, I don't multitask well