I, over the summer, had a dream with this hunched black thing with a large head and tiny needlepoint red eyes; and he told me I was courting weakness and to bring him a swine because he could show me everything I could do. And I kept trying to waive him away, to get him away from me, and I remember waking up with sleep paralysis a few times and talking to something and telling it to leave me alone and it isn't my fault. My brother, who I was on a roadtrip with at the time, heard me screaming this apparently, at about 3 in the morning. He was sleeping on top of the van to look at the stars, I was within.
And this thing, this weird man, it showed me everything that was my fault, so I could be relieved of "the burden of unneeded guilt" and like, shit; information overload through the butterfly effect. So many things that I didn't blame myself for I now saw as being my own failures; and many things I had regretted were not my fault. It was as though I could see the webs and lines between how these things happened; and it made it all very easy to understand.
This creature wasn't much taller than a man, and it had to have its hands on my head to talk in words I could understand. Wasn't shadow, but was empty of light. In my dream I wasn't elsewhere, I was just in my car. Which is what made it all very frightening. When I'm scared of things, having a bad conversation with them, it is usually somewhere else off in dreamland. This thing was with me. It kept calling itself Annoka, or repeating that phrase plenty. Its voice felt like smoke in my ears. Just this angry little man whisper.
I'm pretty much always having night terrors and other such nastiness. This was one that really stuck with me because the imagery and creature were stranger than what I usually contend with come sleep.