thank you so much! I do go to food lines when I can, but I live on the city line, so I have to jump the border to go to it...Sometimes even that's too expensive
I don't want to use the church. I chose not to believe or be part of it, so in my opinion their resources should be used on the people who do believe. This is some sorta weird pride thing I have, but I'd just rather go hungry than receive help under false pretenses... Like I don't believe and I'm never going to believe, and because I don't pay the church tax I shouldn't take advantage of it either.
I would dumpster dive, but there's only one shop in my area (5km radius) and they lock their bins. However the shop is like this small community thing so they every now and then give like free coffee and pastries in the morning coz a lot of poor people live there (disabled and elderly).
I should try do fb...I just find social media so taxing. I think that came with the mental health stuff too. But if you make some fake account to sell shit it's automatically a scam....
BUT I FEEL SO BAD ABOUT SPAMMING. Like sometimes I post the same image in three image threads here and I feel so awful about it... I'm just like o no now everyone gon hate me and think I'm a spambot 8-(
I should...I just never remember... But atleast it's medically proven that my memory works like shit because of depression!yay!
the thing about this is, I don't know anyone. I try to make an effort to like greet people in my building and chat but a much, much bigger part of me immediatelly runs away like a terrified mouse. this one day a while back someone was in the elevator, so I began to immediatelly climb the stairs with three large backs of groceries because I was so anxious about speaking to them or even being noticed. I just want to run away whenever someone so much as looks at me. Anxiety is super fun. The man was so offended too. I didn't mean it to be offensive of course. But It's not like I could explain that four years of being alone weeping in my apartment just kinda made me a fucken weirdo.